The Lonely Girl

Chapter 40: Miss miss him

Rose p.o.v

"Hey Rose," Derek greeted me with much hesitance. "Don't you wanna play with Anna and Max?" 

I shook my head. 

"And...why is that?" 

I sighed. I didn't want to talk. I was so tired. But answered Derek anyway, "Too tired." 

"Ah, I see... Don't you wanna cuddle with Nathan or Ellis?" He asked. 

I shook my head again. 

"Okay then." And that was it. 

We had ended our conversation there and just sat next to each other. I closed my eyes and let the calming sound of the birds, the calming feeling of the wind and sun against my skin, and the calming smell of Derek, calm my body down to let myself drift away in a peaceful nap. 

I had no idea for how long we sat there when I was woken up by Derek. I looked at him with a groggy face, questioning him why he would wake me up from one of the most peaceful sleep I have had since I woke up in the hospital. 

He lightful chuckled, "We are going home, Rose." 

I looked around and saw indeed that everybody was packing their stuff to go. I whined. It was so nice here. I didn't want to leave yet. 

"What's wrong?" Derek asked. 

I shook my head and stood up from the bench, letting Derek's arm go in the process. 

He too stood up and caressed my head once and said, "It was nice seeing you again, Rose. I hope we see each other soon again." 

I looked at him with big eyes. I didn't want him to leave. It felt wrong to feel so, but couldn't help it. 

Standing there glued to the ground I followed Derek with my eyes, how he made his way to his car. The car I wanted to get in so badly. 

Nathan called my name which got me out of my little trance. I made my way to him and he asked once again if I was 'all right'. 

I nodded my head and we made our way home. Well, Nathan and Max's home. Their place didn't feel like my home. 

By the time we arrived, I was exhausted. Even with the extra nap, I couldn't keep my eyes open. 

When Nathan saw me getting out of the car, he commented, "Looks like somebody needs an early bedtime." I yawned in response which cause him to slightly laugh. 

Nathan helped me get ready for bed when he asked, "You sure you don't want some dinner?" 

I nodded my head. But that was when Nathan looked at me as something had just come to him. "Rose? I noticed you don't talk as much as you did...before. Is everything all right? And you got to use your words, young lady." He slightly scolded. 

"I am fine Nathan. Just very very tired." 

"Well, even though I understand why you don't want to talk much when tired, I still want you to use your words." He said as he tucked me in. "I know I am not your Daddy, but I am your Uncle Nathan, so to say, so I will have one rule for you. No nodding and shaking your head anymore. Use your words. Understood?" 

Just as I was about to nod my head, I said, "Understood Nathan." 

"Good," He gave me a forehead kiss. "Because I need to know how you feel." 

For the rest of the week Max was distant towards me, I guess because he is still angry about that night I stayed with them. I didn't blame him though. I, too, wished I would have just stayed put that night. But of course, I couldn't help myself.