DAMI Imagines. [GxG]

Hope Not.

I can't fall asleep this night, under the moonlight
No matter how much I wait, you won't come.
Next to me is an empty space,
I'm not a stranger to being alone anymore.

They say there's no point in regretting but
I'll keep thinking of you
I was wrong

I will smile if I see you as if nothing happened For you I'm okay with being hurt Since I only gave you pain during the time we were together.

But you, the love you want
You need to meet someone better than me
and be happy But I hope not to the point
where you forget me...

Still at this place, I can't forget about you.

Dami couldn't fall asleep this night no matter how much she tried to especially because of the moonlight shining bright into the bedroom tears rolled down her cheeks from frustration, grief and endless sadness. She waited she felt like she needed to wait. Until you would come home healthy and safe so she could see you one more time under the beautiful shining moonlight this night. Her hands roamed the bed when she couldn't feel your figure next at her she panicked for a second because she noticing that your side from bed is empty. Until she remembered what happened and why there's a empty space next to her.

Waterfall of teardrops rolled down her cheeks it hurt, it hurted so much when she remembered how she lost you at death a few months ago after Christmas. The time when a part of her went with you. She honestly wasn't a stranger to being alone anymore since the moment when you took your last breath under the moonlight in her arms. She still remembered the way you looked at with a admiring expression on your face while you caressed her bruised cheeks with your thumbs. Sweat covered your body from trying to fight off all the pain just for a few minutes. The day of your death she realized how wrong she was with her actions. The way she always started fights, arguments with you it broke her heart when she realized how much tears you must have cried because of her cruelly words.

Everyone around her keeps on saying that there's no point of regretting her actions in the relationship she had with you but she couldn't help it. Because in the end a huge part of it has been her fault for never realizing all the pain she put you through until after you took your last breath. Dami will always keep on thinking about you everywhere she goes and no matter who she is with in a friendship way since she can't imagine herself being in a relationship ever again with another woman. Because there isn't another you and all she has been wanting is you. She was wrong way more than everyone knows they clearly don't know how much pain she put you through.

Dami will keep on smiling when she is seeing the hallucinations from you as if nothing happened to you as if you didn't take your last breath in her arms under the moonlight when she sat on green grass besides the street with your back against her front. After a car accident on a street where ambulances couldn't arrive really fast.She is okay with hurting because that's all the consequences for causing you pain during the time you both have been in a relationship.

She wished she could go back into time when you both were still together in a relationship to make everything better again because a life without you isn't black and white it's just black with no happiness anywhere besides her bandmates. She loved her fans and Dreamcatcher mostly at this time since she needs distraction from everything that has been happening lately. Nothing could distract her from seeing you and your memories together everywhere she goes since she's in the middle of going through grief.

The most painful for Dami has been when she had to go at your funeral with your friends, family and her bandmates who support Dami non-stop. Her bandmates had their arms around Dami's body to catch her if she break downs mentally, emotionally and physically. She couldn't be more grateful than in these moments to have her best friends who are also her bandmates by her side. Dami knows it must be hard for them as well since they have been very close to you because you were family for them and their everything.

A few days after the funeral from you and multiple break downs she had enough courage to visit your grave which had beautiful flowers on it. On that day Dami could feel a blow of air after she talked in front of the grave kneeling for almost two hours. Her bandmates waited a few steps behind her for their turn to talk in front of your grave.

At some nights Dami would have nightmares about how you would love someone better than her while you would be happy in the new relationship even though Dami could only hope that you won't forget about her.

Still at this place of what she calls her empty house home because of your things and your pictures framed on the wall she can't forget about you the love of her life. After years when she owned more houses than the one she shared with you she still can't forget you. You are everywhere she knew she could never forget you and your beautiful personality.

She hopes that you are happy and healthy up there in heaven without being in pain or heartbroken because of all the pain she put you through during the time in your relationship. She hope not that you would ever forget her in heaven.