Broken Pieces

part 3 the juice

Soo as y'all know I lost my virginity to cj ;we mad it even more official. We kept dating but than things went downhill;we stopped seeing eye to eye . every other day we had pointless arguments ;we always broke up every other week. although when we broke up we still manage to conversate && I still had sex with him because he was the one who first got my pussy dripping. Our sexlife was clutch but the groupies we're on us heavy & we were both so naive.I loved cj so deeply no matter who I dated I always took him back ;call me a dummy but that was my first love my first everything ,he taught me so many things. Soon he had to go away do ,only if y'all could feel the pain I went through .I was soo inlove and soo damn stressed. The love of my life was leaving but it was for a good cause ;I spent his last days of in town with him at his grandma house .everyday I would catch the bus to this hood called Montclair which is where his grandma lived ;we chilled me ,him and his cousin who I knew first that nigguh was hilarious and cool asf(as fuck). So one day me and cj take a nap ,I wake up first ;something wasn't right so I checked his phone.his code was our date ;he wasn't too smart ,niguh had the hoes ,he also had a main chic & she wasn't me better yet she was better than me and prettier ;my self esteem dropped all the way. I was below his level he liked thicked girls I only weighed 92 pounds at the age of 17 . neway I lost all respect for him and myself;I let him take my vcard ,fell so hard inlove that I didn't notice nothing nor believed anything his brother told me although I knew it was the truth. Me and cj got on bad terms ,I immediately broke up with him. Two days before his leaving ;let me tell y'all he was leaving to become a sailor .newho two days before he left I went to his mom house to say my good bye's ;I had cried two weeks straight and hadn't ate in about an week. Went over to talk with him kissed him had sex with him ,felt like we just met but no we just had a chilled day. Sad part is I wrote him a letter and he couldn't take it or maybe he was lien. I felt as if we would lose all connection ,I wouldn't see him or when I did he would be married to someone better. Night came I was home crying ,I got a phone call from cj and his brother saying they were stopping by ;I was mad but of course I said yes.they lived a good walking distance from my house ,iswear them nigguhs didn't card though so I felt special I mean what nigguh would walk late at night take an hour walk but wait they knew shortcuts.yes my love walked to get back on goodterms with me before leaving, I appluad him for that but I also got his ass in check.my love came ,we walked and talked ,he kissed me and caressed me it was so passionate. Cj had the magic touch ;I needed his touch everyday but I knew it was worth the wait oh well I thought it was .after waiting and waiting I grew restless and seeked different attention so I let cj be off my mind until I found out if he thought of me as much as I thought of him.