𝗯𝗲𝘀𝘁 𝗼𝗳 𝗯𝗼𝘁𝗵 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗹𝗱𝘀 || 𝘇𝗱𝗵

𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝚜𝚒𝚡

𝘆/𝗻 𝗽𝗼𝘃
as the final days of tour are coming up i am
beginning to feel sad. not only about tour
ending but the fact that i'm lying to two people
i really care about. i had interviews today and
so did the why don't we boys. so i didn't get to
talk to corbyn today. since i've been getting
close with zach...me and corbyn have been
getting distant. i know he still likes me because
he tells me all the time how much he does. and
in the beginning i felt the same way...but now i
don't know if i still feel that same way.

𝘇𝗮𝗰𝗵 𝗽𝗼𝘃
i'm so glad to have found a person like y/n.
she's so caring and listens to me...nobody else
does that. being the youngest in the band i
sometimes feel like i can't talk to the older
guys about personal stuff because they'll
make fun of me. but y/n listens to me and
understands the same things i'm going
through. since we are both on the road she
misses school just like i do.

i tell her everything and she tells me
everything. there are no secrets between us. i
want to ask her to be my girlfriend but i don't
know if she feels the same way about me. but
then i think what if she does feel the same
way? i think next time i see her i'll work up the
courage to just ask her to be my girlfriend.
we've spent so much time together i think we
could have something really special.

𝘆/𝗻 𝗽𝗼𝘃
every time zach and i hangout i feel guilty. he
always said things like "i'm glad we can be
honest with each other" and "it's so good to
not have secrets between us" i can't stand it...
it's eating me alive. i'm losing sleep over it. i
just don't know if i should tell him my nessa
secret. i don't know if it would make him mad
or make things get worse. or if he'd be really
excited that i told him and we could finally be
together.

zach and i are suppose to meet at our usual
spot tonight after the show. you'd think we
would get tired of just meeting in a dressing
room and talking...but we never do. we find out 
more and more about each other everyday. i
don't know how many times i can look him in
the eyes and tell him i'm being honest with
him... when i'm not.

the show ended and after this show i teared
up a little because i realized that all of this was
going to end soon. i pulled myself together
and asked the real makeup artist to do some
touch ups for me before he left. then i went to
change and take off my wig so i could go meet
zach. sometimes i just wish he would walk in
the bus like he did that one day but this time i
wish he would see me take off my wig so i
wouldn't have to keep it from him anymore.

when i got in the dressing room we were
meeting at zach got up and immediately
hugged me. he never usually hugs me like
that. "what's this for?" i asked. "i just missed
you a lot" he replied. "i miss you too" i said. i
noticed that zach looked nervous and he kept
looking down like he wanted to tell me
something but couldn't find the words to.
"zach is everything ok?" i asked. "um...yea
everything is fine i'm just thinking" he replied
nervously. "thinking about what?"

"thinking about how much better my life would
be if i could call you my girlfriend" he said
while blushing. "aww zach" i replied. "so i
guess this is my way of asking... y/n will you be
my girlfriend?" he said while nervously rubbing
the back of his neck. "zach...i would love to be
your girlfriend more than anything in this
world...but i can't" i replied with a sigh. "you
can't? why not?" he asked. "i can't tell you but
trust me zach i do want to be your
girlfriend...nows just not the right time" i
replied while tearing up. "how is it not the right
time? i thought we had something amazing"
he said. "we do and i want to tell you more
about everything that's going on but i can't
right now" i replied. "i've been so honest with
you y/n but i guess you haven't been so honest
back" he said, sounding really hurt before
getting up and walking out of the room
slamming the door.