to escape from reality(COMPLETE)

.25-he lied

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Pov Anna
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As the day went by, I had seen wilbur a few times today not very often though.

Me and toby where currently in his bedroom on our phones just hanging out."hey, whats going on with you and Will? You both havent talked to each other all day, and both seem mad and kinda bummed out, is everything alright?"

"Uh. Something happened and ill tell him that i am sorry dont worry."  He gave a quick hummed response before we heard tommy talking to someone through the wall. He had a genuine annoyed tone not like the one he uses for his persona, he had multiple voice cracks and sound deeply broken. "WHAT THE HELL!" He was probably in the room next door, which was my bedroom. I tell the Burnette boy that i am gonna go check up on tommy.

As i entred the room and saw the blonde boy on the bed with his palm on his forehead and light sniffles which let me to guess he was crying before i entred.

"Tom, you okay?"

"Um yeah! You dont need to worry about anything i am alright and couldn't be anybetter" he lied. It was obvious that he lied. I didnt want to pressure him but i knew he'd just hide his emotions and just pretend he was alright. You might think how do i know? I also do that i do the exact same thing with my emotions but still sometimes try to tell some rather than keeping it to myself. If i dont want to tell anyone, notes app.

It was my safe space i knew no one had acess to it and i could express my self. "Just know, if you ever want to talk even it is in the middle of the night I'll be ready to listen"  i gave a soft smile. "Can i hug you?" He asked, i sat beside him and nodded.

His hands rested behinde my neck , mine were stationed on his back. My head on his shoulder and his head on mine. "Thank you" he wispered. "Anytime big man" i smiled even though he wasnt able to see it.

It is scary to think how just a hug from someone can be so refreshing and home-like, how you feel like you belong there. Maybe its not the hug just the person.

We both needed this. I thought i hated touch but now growing to realise that its not the feeling i hated it was the person that i was being huged by cuased me to hate it. Now, i dont hate it. I am away far far away from them and never have to see and feel that feeling again. Instead i could focus on the people in life that actually mattered.

We sat there for what felt like a minute turned out to be thirty minutes. " you called me big man" tommy mentioned with a small chuckle.

"Die" laughed with him. I missed this alot.i missed him. The feeling of what actual home felt like.

This was my home.

He was my home.

He was a part of my home.

He is home.

He is a part of my home.

Everyone in this house was home.

Are home.

Turns out tommy fell asleep on me, while i was busy thinking about home. I slowly moves his hands off my and cover him with a blanket and let him lay on my bed. I walk out to see toby and jack sitting on the bar stools in the kitchen.

"Is he alright?" His best friend asked, i shake my head in a no. "Then what the hell did you do i  there for almost an hour? " jack questioned. " ok, i wasnt in there for almost an hour. And we just hanged out and i dont know just huged each other, give each other comfort. "  toby nodded understanding what i ment. Jack on the other hand was a bakk of confusion. Trying to understand what i said and ment. "It is for big kids like understand not children like you ,jack" toby laughed while jack complained and shouted ober the fact he is the oldest among us three.

Me amd toby left him alone continuing to complain, and went out to the balcony continued mine as his bedroom. We stood there not speaking a single word. before he decided to cut it."You missed him didnt you?"  I was stunned. "I missed who?"

"Tommy, i mean i seen you both talk to each other like you havent seen him years. Which is true but irrelevant to what i am trying to say. It is like visible in both your eyes." What he said made sense from his and others perspective, for me i didnt notice that. It makes sense to me, I ignored the boy who I loved for almost 3 years (coma not included), who seemed to enjoy time with me, who i just enjoyed being around.

Yet, had the urge to get up and leave. I sighed and just shrugged i had no clue either. Emotions are difficult. A few more minutes of us just taking up the nature and our presence. Toby spoke up.

"I have been thinking"

"Thinking 'bout what?"

"Me and Jess"

"Oh, what about you two? Wait, no, if you are thinking of breaking up with her i swear to g-" i spoke before being cut off by the boy. "What!no, i am never doing that. I love her. Truly. I was thinking about , like-like one day ummm marrying her" as he said the last word my eyes widened. I was taken aback. I knew one day this would happen, but i didnt expect it so soon.

"What! Woah, you know you need to think about if Jess is ready for that big of commitment" he nodded, and explained how he wasnt going to do that anytime soon but one day. I was happy for both of them truly.  But they make me feel lonely.

"Also when you two get married do I get to be the flower girl, brides maid and evertyping else ALSO I get to design the cake"

"Sure sure. You can do whatever you want at our wedding" he smiled patting my head. He is like an older yet younger brother to me. Our friendship is great.

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A/n:

Elloo!
I am going go start doing maybe weekly updates which maybe will pause in between due to a hell of a place called school 😀

Hope you enjoyed this chapter. Maybe idk vote.  That's the star in the bottom. 💃

I am to single and lonely to listen to people's love life and write this. 🕳👨‍🦯

DRINK WATER, TAKE YOUR MEDS, SLEEP WELL ILY <33

Part 2.
TOMMY IS 18 AND HIS MERCH GOES LIVE IN A FEW HOURS WTF????HOW????
I REMEMBER WATCHING HIM WHEN HE WAS 16 AND NOW HE IS AN ADULT ITS CRAZILY SCARY

Mans gonna do a drinking stream one day i can bet that

NOW YOU ALL CAN LEAVE BYEEE <3333