HIS WILD LOVE - S2 || JJK FF - 21+ ||

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In the room dim light was on, as the woman laid flat after washing up and changing into pajamas, at this time you should have fallen asleep but today somehow you're not sleepy at all.

Under the night light, a golden button emitted a faint light on your hand, the colour of the button was shining, you keep staring at this particular button and lost in thought, back then this button was dropped by the mysterious man from the rainy night five years ago, suddenly your fingers tightened around the button.

You had asked Yuri to find the whereabouts of the owner of this button for you, all around she searched and found Jeon Jeonghan, with the help of her brother aka your brother now, thinking about it probably Seokjin also knows about the owner but you never asked and he never told.

This news scared you for a time, it even made you feel great guilt Infront of Jungkook, you had once believe that the child was very likely to be Jeonghan's, that's why wanted to avoid him until Rowoon was born and grew up slowly, the facial features of your son became more and more like a person of your memory, your heart went doubt from, to disbelief...

It was too absurd. Even Jeonghan was from Jeon family, it's impossible that his genes would look the same as his step brother instead of him! you even had a thought that the mysterious man at that night was none another Jungkook himself but the way he keep saying that you're scheming against him and you married into a Jeon with some ulterior motives, he even said that the child was bastard, so how could he said things like this if it's his genes.?

If it was really his child then he would have acknowledged but sadly it's just your thoughts, in addition Jungkook's attitude towards you back then was worst, still deep down you believe that the Rowoon was really related to Jungkook.

The fingers around button tightened, you don't know why you kept it up till now, it's the only things you got from that man beside Rowoon, if it was not for Rowoon then you might not have been able to live anymore.

suddenly the door cracked opened, you quickly put button under the pillow preventing to see others, it's the secret that only belongs to you alone, you don't want people to know it, you had hide it for many years, it's Rowoon, you look at the little bun climbing on the bed "My baby is still not sleepy.?"

You shift his things to another room, since you want to give him some space for himself, he's growing, he came and snuggle into your arms muttering "Mommy, I don't want to sleep alone, want to sleep with mommy."

you kissed his forehead many times and gently stroked his hair "My Rowoonie has grown up, you can't sleep with mommy anymore, you're a little man now, so now you got your own room, right!"

he rub his face into your chest "No, but I want to sleep with mommy, I'm still baby though, mommy let me sleep alone for few days, Rowoonie miss mommy, so lemme sleep tonight."

"But Rowoonie have to put habit sleeping by yourself." you want to persuade him to go back to his room "Mommy always said that Rowoonie has grown up, does that mean I can go and find daddy.?"

you're stunned and your heart shake, in the overseas Rowoon never asked you about his dad, he was exceptionally cute and obedient but now after returning to country he mentioned this matter several times "Why do you suddenly asked about your daddy.? you never asked before..." you looked at him in your arms, he pouted "Mommy used to have hard time, so I didn't want mommy to get tired, my friends have their father, so I want to find my father too, Can I.?."

Rowoon will never find his biological father.! will he ever get one! you don't want to think about it right now "Don't.." you rebuked strictly, Rowoon was stunned "Mommy, I ..."

"Did you hear what i said.?" the strictness of mother's voice made little bun blink his eyes that just turned red "But mommy, I really want to find my biological daddy."