*Was gonna fix it up into a song*
There's 3 words of a thousand I've heard that's lifted me higher than I ever thought could.
But every time those words meant nothing, now I'm left here running from the pain from someone I could trust.
They said they'd hold and defend me but half of them had someone, more than a friend, lied to and hurt was all I got in the end.
My heart keeps aching, I'm taking a break
I just keep drowning, you showed up too late
Nothing I can do but just wait and wait till one day I'll say that I'm great.
Beaten and bruised, in body, in soul,
Nothing can soothe this gapping blackhole in me, I am not free,
The shackles from my past, they are holding me back, too afraid to keep in touch, I'm too scared to fall in love, have I not been through enough?
It's been nothing but fails, God I feel so damn frail like the next time I bend I'll snap.
Those 3 words in the end made left nothing but scars, so I drown myself in bottles from bars but it won't let me forget it yet,
Because I believed every word, every phrase they had turned to make me feel like I'm special, I'm not.
My heart keeps aching, I'm taking a break
I just keep drowning, you showed up too late
Nothing I can do but just wait and wait till one day I'll say that I'm great.
The next person I find, if she ever arrives it's gonna be hard to feel safe.
While others are cruisin', my whole life's in ruins, sprawled on the ground with chalk and red tape.
If only I could say all this hate is for, like the sorrow was from you,
This hatred is for me and me alone.
I've been this way and still will be tomorrow when I'm too scared to pick up my phone.
My heart keeps aching, I'm taking a break
I just keep drowning, you showed up too late
Nothing I can do but just wait and wait till one day I'll say that I'm great.
