𝐻𝑖𝑠 𝑓𝑙𝑜𝑟𝑖𝑠𝑡

Kiss

He stayed the day with me, drunk some tea with me and read a book with me till I fall asleep in his arm.
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I got out of my head and started visiting him at the shelby parlor after I closed my shop. he sat there and I watched him work. I talked to him about anything and everything. and in the end he accompanied me home and we read stories until i fell asleep in his arms.

Today, there was small party in the garrison. Everyone wanted me to come to celebrate. As I walked through the streets, i noticed a few workers. Arrived at the garrison it was already full of people. I meandered through the room and sat down at the bar. i searched around the room and then discovered thomas, who was talking to a blond woman. It was the bartender. I saw how close they were getting and saw that they were about to kiss. I turned around.

My heart shattered. I shouldn't have come.

"Dahliaaaa, nice to see ya. Would ya like to have a drink."It was Arthur.
I raise my shoulders high and looked down at the counter. I didn't feel like conversation and i didn't know what I should do here anymore.
i really thought that I can be with Thomas. I felt stupid and... I was stupid to think that he...
"I'll do you something. you'll feel better soon" he said enthusiastically.
I gave him a small node and waited.
After a while, he put a glass on the counter. "Drink this, this will make you happy. "
I took the glass and downed it without hesitation. it tasted of cherries and a bit of lemon. I couldn't identify the other elements.
I put the glass down.

After a few minutes, I laughed and started to talk to the others. I became more open. I even started to sing along loudly. whatever that was, it made me forget my worries and fears.

I was talking to a man who was sitting next to me, as a person interrupted the conversation. it was thomas. He whispered something in the man's ear and I could only see his face reflecting fear. he jumped off the chair and ran away.

I looked at him in the Eyes. those eyes that made me fall in love with him.
I didn't want to look at him because I knew that He didn't feel what I was feeling. I turned my gaze.
I get up from the chair and walked past him. I was close to tears. damn, why do i feel this way?
I walked through the room and opened the door. Fresh air came towards me. it rained. I didn't have an umbrella with me.

then it should be like this. I was walking through the rain when someone grabbed my arm. I panicked and wanted to tear myself out of the grief when I noticed that it was Thomas.

"What do you want? go back to your bartender"I said with a angry voice. I never talked like this, but I felt Like I had to say that.
he looked at me confused.

"What do you fucking mean by that, eh?" He asked, coming closer to me.

"i saw it. I'm not stupid. I saw that you two are together... "my voice broke at the end. I was about to cry.
"Let me go. You don't need me and I don't need you. I only had me in the few years. I can live by my own. I don't need anybody. So let me go, Thomas"
I pulled on my arm but he didn't let go, instead he pulled me towards him and kissed me.
He kissed me. My first kiss. it was wonderful.

his lips left mine and we looked at each other. our faces were close.

"Is this answer enough... I love you" he flustered, while he took my hand and kissed it.
"Don't lie to me Thomas" I said.
he wiped the rain out of my face. "I would never lie to you."
"I love you, Thomas Shelby..."

I could see a bride smile on his face which made me smile. The rain fall down on us. We stayed there for a minute.
"We probably should get you home, love." He took his jacket of and put it over us...