𝐻𝑖𝑠 𝑓𝑙𝑜𝑟𝑖𝑠𝑡

Miss you

4 months

"I want you to come to the family dinner."
"I....I can't have something..... well, i have something to do..."
"You are bad liar. "
"I didn't lie... I need to.... To water my plants."
She laughed. "you will come."
"But..."
"There are no buts. You will come. Someone will be there at 6 p.m. be ready. And make yourself pretty."
She left me in shock.

I knew what she was up to, but I didn't want to because I know that I will regret my decision.
It's been 4 months. Thomas and I didn't talk. I loved him still, but I can't be with him. It's hurts because I missed him. I missed so much it killed me. i secretly walked to the garrison or the shelby Parlour to catch a glimpse of him. But I can't. How can I? But there was one side of me who missed him and loved him. I missed his smile. his eyes. His smell. His kisses. our conversations. everything. I wanted to be with him every second, but...

Frustrated i clean the floor. what should I do?
I knew Polly was serious about this.

I went up to my room and looked at myself in the mirror. I took a shower and got ready. I wanted to see him, even if it wasn't like before.

i put my hair half in a braid and decorated it.
I took deep breath and went downstairs.

I couldn't arrive with empty hands, so I decided to make a bucket of flowers. Ready I looked around one last time and went to the door. I could see Finn staying in front of the door.

"Oh Hello Finn, did you wait long?
"Nope. Aunt pol said that i should pick you up.
You look very beautiful today."

"That's very kind of you. You look also beautiful,Finn.You are such a gentleman..
I think we should go now, so that we are not too late, don't you think?"
"Yess." The kid grinned.

together we made our way to polly.
Once we were there, Finn sprinted into the room.

Polly greeted me and took the flowers, when she said: "I should find a vase for her."
I took the chance and said: "I'll do it don't worry."
"what, but you...«
"take care of your guests i'll take care of that."

i took the flowers and started looking for a vase.

I found one in one of the rooms. I wanted to put the flowers into the vase, when suddenly a voice spoke out of nowhere. "Are you hiding ?"
"What?" I asked caught,
I turned around and saw John.
"we all now that something between you two happend"
"Really, is it that obvious. "
"Yes, dahlia...Do You miss him?"
"Everyday."
"Go to him. Fix it then."
"I can't..."
"Why can't ya? I know what ya saw, and he had his reasons, but he's still trying to improve.
He always ask about ya when Polly came home back from ya. You know, He smiles like a bastard when someone talks about ya. He fucking loves you, even a blind person can see that. You miss each other...
Apar from tha', he was a fucking bastard at work in the past months. he used to be a lot nicer because of ya."
I wanted to say something, but I was speechless.

"I think my work is done her'. I will go now. " he walked out of the room.

I sat down on the coach and thought about his words. I loved him still and I wanted to be with him, but can I overlook what happened. But maybe it wasn't the problem, maybe I am scared to lose my happiness again...