violet, blue, green, red | hisoka x chrollo x illumi x fem!reader | 18+

sixteen

Consciousness slowly overtakes you. You can feel the humid air of the room over your exposed fingertips and can smell the familiar smell of a man you try to forget. You scrunch your nose, squeezing your eyelids once more before letting them fall open. It takes a second for your vision to even out, the blurriness of the stark white ceiling slowly coming into focus as you wake up. Everything hurts - your head is pounding horribly, your throat screaming for hydration, and your stomach churning with the need to eat. It's a horrible feeling, but what scares you, even more, was that you didn't quite know where you were, or what happened. The last thing you could feel was Chrollo's body, Chrollo's lips... 

Fuck. Your head hurts like hell. 

"C-Chrollo?" You mutter, words scraping your dry throat like white-hot razors. You knew you sounded like shit - didn't feel very different either, but all you can think about was him. If he was safe, if he abandoned you, if he was the one who hurt you... It all didn't make sense and your throbbing head only made those possible outcomes worst. 

"You're awake," A soft voice rings through the room, startling you. You didn't think anyone could hear you, but you were glad they did - terrified nonetheless. "I'm sorry, I know I'm not the one you wish to see." 

Illumi kneels next to the bed, reaching his hand under the blankets to hold yours. You tense, eyes cutting to look at the unknown assailant. His hand was cold and thin - you know this hand. You remember holding it, admiring the way the long digits fit around your own. 

"Illumi..." You mutter, eyes bloodshot as you look at him. He looks disheveled, not in his normal, pristinely pressed uniform and bone-straight hair. He almost looked relaxed in a t-shirt and messy updo. But, no matter how endearing his soft voice and equally soft demeanor, you couldn't shake the fact that wherever Illumi is, Hisoka is never but a mile away. 

"Yes... Hello, angel. How do you feel?" 

"Where's Chrollo. Where am I?" 

Illumi's face falls as you skip over his question so easily, scornful eyes demanding an answer. You felt betrayed - manipulated, almost. Once more you found yourself in a situation like this. Maybe you were a magnet for misfortune, or maybe you have too many enemies, but you can't justify an enemy in Illumi. The two words don't fit well together. 

"It's okay, take a few seconds to calm down. I'll get you something to eat and drink." 

"I don't want anything, I want to know what the hell I'm doing here. With you." 

"Please, do not get angry. I only wish to help you." 

"I don't want your help. Answer my question." 

You start to sit up, shaking hands doing little to aid you. You felt so weak, so sick. It was as if the world was spinning, and you were so upset, so angry. You hated not being in control of yourself or where you ended up, you hated it. You wanted to vomit. 

"Whoa, whoa. Easy." Illumi reaches out to steady your shivering frame, trying his best not to surprise you with his touch, or grab too hard. God forbid he hurt you - his head would be a trophy on a platter by the end of the night. 

You watch as the door just opposite the bed creaks open, billowing steam rushing through the cracks. Hisoka steps out, a towel wrapped tight around his waist, and uniform beads of water falling from his soaked hair and damp chest. He looks at you with those eyes, and it's like everything goes black. You gag as he stares at you, leaning over the edge of the bed to hurl the empty contents of your stomach on the floor next to it, successfully hitting Illumi with your lackluster aim. 

"Oh, so dramatic." 

Hisoka's voice comes as an unwelcome slap in the face, and then everything starts to fall into place. You remember the elevator, being so entranced in Chrollo as he touched you - kissed you so tenderly. You remember the feeling of excitement as he closed in on you, so ready to give your all to him. So ready to forget the taste of Hisoka's lips on your own. Then you can see those snake-like, piercing iris' before everything went dark and numb.