Twin Roses

8.Not your fault

Five Months later.

Hospitals, ahh I love and hate the smell... Do you get it?? Well, I don't get it either. I do like the sensitizer and medicine smell but the sick and sad vibe is everywhere and I hate it so, you can tell that I have a love-hate relationship with the hospital. We are frenemies!!

Looking now at myself in the mirror, a person I never imagined that would come in to life was staring back at me. A girl with short blue hair and a tattoo peeking from her chest. Not in a wildest dream have I ever thought something like this would happen but after what happened I have to say, I have changed a lot.

I was pulling my white shirt on when Jared peeked in from behind the curtain. I was changing back in to my clothes after my daily checkup.

"Are you done?" asked Jared

"All most"

"Let me do it" he grabbed my shirt startling me and started buttoning it up, well it is not mine the shirt was Jared's but when you have a twin there is no owner for the cloths. At least that is how it is for us.

Jared kept his head down concentrating on the buttons. I have to say he has changed too. He was more on edge these days he gets angry very easily and doesn't let me do anything alone and it's hard to reject him too. Even though he looks normal when we are surround by others, when he is with me, he has a look of a puppy that has lost hope of finding a home.

I reached up my hand to touch his face "let's go home... babe"

I know BABE!!, As a pet name is wired but for a long time, I have been calling him my baby and it's our secret name we use when we are sorry for the other.

This is so annoying I am the one sick but half of the people I know are suffering because of this. That is kind of a punishment. Isn't the person being sick enough!

Banker was waiting for us in the hospital parking lot. Yep, mum would not let us go alone, with Banker there she says that she can rest assure so hence we travel with banker with us and yes, we take Banker for parties as well but no one minds it because I have to admit Banker is very fun to have around. 

It normally takes us about thirty minutes to get to our home but strangely today it is taking hours. It was kind of awkward to sit in the car with nothing to talk about when I remembered the old days, we used to talk so much that sometimes we even drove past our house.

"UMM... Jared, well you know I kind of want to do a small job... "I spoke at last spitting out something I have been thinking for few months now.

"What do you want to do?"

"How about we do a duo party singers job? I have been thinking for a while now you can play the guitar and I can sing. You can sing as well but I know you don't like singing in front of other people. We can make posters and post online so we can find people who would hire us. Won't that be fun we get to have fun together." I pleaded, giving him the googly eyes.

"Fine, fine, you know you don't have to give me the googly eyes every time to convince me" he said chuckling.

"You see I have to use them after all it's a gift of nature" I said acting proud.

"Gift of nature, my ass" he said.

I smiled, that's my big brother. Somehow no matter how heard everything gets when we are together, we can face it with a laughter. That is what it meant to be twins I have no idea what I would do if I wasn't born with you.

Lucie opened the door just as we parked the car.

"you guys are early today. Did it finish that fast? You did all of the checkups right" That was expected Lucie is king of our second mother after all.

""Banker, they didn't dich the hospital did they!" asked Lucie. Banker licked Lucie's hand as a reply.

I ran to the couch and jumped on to it "AHHHHH! Vacation is so good but the sad part is it ends. Jared, did you do Math homework, it was so hard, does Mrs. Margaret think that we are Einsteins or something? Jared let me copy your work" I tried giving him the googly eyes again.

"NO, that would not work on me" Jared said with a smirk on his face and went to give the report to mum.

So far nothing much has changed at all. Things go by as they always do. Tomorrow will be the first day of the new semester and the most dreadful thing is waking up early so bored to do that.

Dad didn't come home today, they have over time work obviously when you are running a hotel with many branches around the country and the world you are supposed to get loaded with work. Mum is super angry at him, he has been away for about a week now.

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I woke up almost screaming. "What the F**k! that was hell of a dream!!" I said to my self. That was the last thing I wanted to see. These days I have this horrifying dream of Jared dying right in front of my eyes and I can't do anything about it. 

Even after half an hour my eyes won't shut themselves to sleep how annoying. What to do, I picked up my favorite pillow and walked to the next room. Obviously, it was Jared's .

I slowly opened the door and sneaked onto the bed. Trying my best not to wake him up.

"I smell a thief" said Jared making me jump out of the bed.

"Holy crap you scared me!!"

"Well, you scared me first! What can't sleep? Scared of ghosts?" said Jared.

Suddenly I couldn't stop myself, tears came crashing down and I started crying.

"Why? What? Are you in pain? What's the problem?" Jared was off the bed in an instant but I just simply kept crying the dream and the pain full thoughts that was of leaving Jared behind, all of them crashed on to me and I kept crying hitting and clinging on to him. He dragged me on to the bed and hugged me tightly.

"I'm sorry"' I said on and on and some how Jared understood what I was sorry for.

"It's okay" he whispered to my ear calming me down. "Its not your fault"

New hair

Our tattoos

                         Obviously we got similar ones what did you expect us to do?