Business or Pleasure... (18+) WLW

butthurt

get it? cause the past three chapters have been spanking so this one is butthurt hehe anyways

Quin POV

Alex carries mirabelle into the bathroom and i make my way out to the kitchen where i down a bottle of cold water. Catia joins me and sits on one of the stools at the island.

"you good?"

she questions and i look at her weirdly

"yea im fine why"

"mirabelle is gonna need us. So take care of yourself while shes in the bath because afterwards it will be us taking care of her for the night"

i hum my answer

"alright ill go take a shower."

i walk away from the kitchen and i hear her judginess

"fine but hurry"

During my shower i let the water beat down on my head. Its so relaxing the steady pulse of it. Once im fully clean and washed, i get out drying off. I get into a crop pj shirt and a pair of soft sweatpants.

I let my feet hit the cold tile as i traipse out to the living room. The lights are off, the tv is set, snacks on the table, blankets gallore, and some candles lit. This has willow written all over it. I dont show it because i dont want them to think im weak but when willow does aftercare things like this it makes me jealous. I just feel like im not capable. When they say i need to do it with mirabelle all i think of is just holding her til she falls asleep.

Alexandria gets into her head. She thinks what she would want if she was in mirabelles position but i cant even frame my mindset like that. I think they all are so good at it whereas i struggle with every form of intimacy.

Ive always known i was a dom. Ive had some short term subs in the past but i suppose they werent healthy relationships if you could even call it a relationship. It would just be me calling them up and we would have some really kinky sex. They would leave shaking, and i wouldnt call them until the next late night i wanted them to come over. I had a talk with willow the other day. Shes very understanding and helped explain it to me. I think i understand it better now.

If this is an ongoing agreement, then i need to deliver ongoing care. I cant hit it and quit like i have done before.

She gave me some tips and i have them in a notes app on my phone. As soon as she left the room after telling me this, I wrote it down knowing i would need to remember it. I anxiously fidget with the blanket covering me when i open the note.

How to make mirabelle feel better

- Hold her

-Reassure her that she did well and that she is safe

-Ask her how she is feeling

-Ask if there is anything i can do to make her feel more secure

-consistently stay in contact with her skin to prevent subdrop

-Brush her hair (willow says it soothes her)

-Hold her tightly, compression hugs ease anxiety

-Tell her how proud I am

That cant be too hard right? I close my phone when i hear hushed voices and footsteps approaching. Alexandria and willow are walking beside our bella as they keep her steady on her feet. She shuffles out with her arm tangled in willows. I look up to her gently and pat the spot beside me on the couch. She looks to willow and alex for an answer and they both nod. She hesitantly turns to me and sits beside me.

"May i?"

i ask permission before touching her. Willow said to do that after a scene in case a sub is not in a good headspace. She nods lightly. I wrap my arms around her waist and set her comfortably on my lap. She rests her head against a pillow i set beside my thighs. She curls into a ball and I cover her with the blanket. With one hand i rub back and forth over the top of her arm. With the other I rest it on top of her head and scrunch her hair lightly. She immediately relaxes in my presence and it triggers something within me.

nobody has ever felt comfortable with me like this, where they ease at my touch. It's always been them tensing. I thought being able to feel their fear in their composure was addicting. This is a whole nother type of drug.

Knowing mirabelle just relaxed in my arms is making me feel something i never thought i'd experience.

"kitten how do you feel"

she rolls a little so she's looking up at me from under her lashes.

"m'okay"

"it's alright kitten, you can talk to me. What pushed you to use your safe word other than willow"

"i uh- it was just a lot. I don't think i was one thing that crossed a line, it was just a build up of overwhelming factors"

i think carefully about what she's saying

"kitten you did so good. You took your punishment so well, im very proud of you"

"you are?"

she scrambled off my lap so she was sitting up facing me and i endearingly nodded my head at her while continuing the small touches to try and prevent sub drop.

She is so precious and uncorrupted. I treasure it but also loathe it. I will kill anyone with my bare hands that tries to hurt her and take away her innocence other than us.

She jumps forward and throws her little arms around me squeezing. I hug her back in surprise and rest one hand on her back and the other on the back of her head holding her against me.

"you did so well kitten. You're such a good girl"

i feel her squeeze a little tighter and i must have held her like this for at least a few minutes before we release and she snuggles against me to watch the movie. She nibbles on her snacks and eventually she passes out before the movie is even over.

her loud snores make us all have to hold in our laughter. They're so adorable but you wouldn't imagine this ugly sound coming from this ethereal looking girl.

i look at willow and she smiles knowing exactly what i'm thinking.

"sure, just let her sleep on the side closest to the wall. She doesn't like sleeping by the door"

i nod my head lifting her carrying her into my room with me. I lay her down gently on my bed in the spot willow said and i go brush my teeth and wash my face. When i return she is exactly where i left her and she has the most peaceful look on her face.

a wave of anxiety rushed over me when i realize that i have the girl i'm fucking, sleeping in my bed. I don't do this.  A part of me wants to run. But i force myself into the bed. She immediately snuggled into me and she let out a tired moan that sounded so sweet.

I kiss her forehead before i close my own eyes

"goodnight bella"