Desperate (Daejae Boyxboy)

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Daehyun was first to wake up the next morning. It came as a surprise to him to see that he and Youngjae were laying down the floor.. but images in his head from last night had reminded him the reason why. Still he was astonished about how he and Youngjae were positioned.. Youngjae had his hand on Daehyun's face and Daehyun's foot had somehow crawled it's way to Youngjae's soft, fluffy tummy..huh..funny..

Daehyun carefully removed Youngjae's hand from his face and slowly sat up.. his eyes suddenly landed on the sleeping couple on the bed.

It was so sweet to see the tough Yongguk wrap his slightly bulky arms tightly around Himchan in a protective manner, as Himchan snuggled more into Yongguk's chest. It kinda reminded Daehyun how he and Youngjae would be like when they were sleeping in bed too.. well as a matter of fact, Himchan and Yongguk were just the same as he and Youngjae.. two people in love.. but the only difference is that Himchan and Yongguk were married.. Daehyun doesn't really get the whole idea of marraige.. but he knows when a couple gets married, they are to stay with eachother forever and never love anybody else aside from each other.. then they can settle and live in one house and just live on with their lives as a married couple.. although he hasn't really thought of it before, but now that he's met how Yongguk and Himchan.. his mind always wonders what it would be like to marry Youngjae.. he would love to, very very much.. because it would mean that they'd have eachother forever.. he would like that.. but would it be possible though? He isn't stupid, he knows that one day, they're bound to get separated.. he's just afraid of that one day.. but still, he just can't help but think of how his life would be if Youngjae and him were married...

He would wake up everyday to see a very beautiful angel sleeping in his arms.. then he would cook breakfast for both of them.. after that they can do anything they want.. they could perhaps go dancing, or maybe swimming or even star gazing again! Yes.. there was so much they could do.. they could even have children! wait.. can they? Daehyun doesn't even know how the whole process works.. how are babies even born? from what he's heard they were to be created in their mommy's tummy, and once the mommy has a baby in her tummy, she will be referred to as 'Pregnant'... since they were both boys, who was the mommy? Daehyun certainly doesn't want to be the mommy.. he wants to be the responsible daddy that takes care of their family.. he wants to be the father he never had.. he never wants to hurt their children, unlike what his own father did to him.. So.. if he's going to be the daddy, then that would make Youngjae the mommy...

but then again..

how was he even going to get Youngjae pregnant?

They can't have a child if Youngjae would not get pregnant now, can they? He knows nothing about getting a person pregnant at all... hmnn.. Himchan might know.. might as well ask him later..

His thoughts were interrupted by a soft groan

"Daehyun?"

"Neh?.."

"What are you thinking about?.."

"Oh.. You know.. things.."

"What kind of things?.."

"Just things, Jae.. just things.."

he insisted before staring out the window

"Hmmn.. I worry about you sometimes.."

Daehyun furrowed his brows a little before smiling

"You don't have to.."

He then proceeded to lightly pinch both sides of the latter's cheeks

"But how can I not? You doze of sometimes.. I don't know what you're thinking or worrying over because I have no way of finding out, because you won't tell me..."