Black And Grey

32. Beer tastes bad,but whatever

Shout-out to JElla_Emma
She deserves it♥️

The flight back home was relaxing, except that I missed Justin.

I ring the doorbell.

As I do so,I notice my car is back.

Amanda opens up with a smile.

"I missed you" she shrieks and hugs me very tight

"Missed you too" I manage to say as she releases her hold.

She helps me with my bags and we both walk in.

She says just her and mom are home.

"I'm so excited! I'm resuming on Monday!" I say as we walk upstairs. She shrieks again and hugs me.

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"Mom? Mom? Mom?"

"Jessy," she whispers with her eyes closed. "You're back. How was it? Did they accept you?"

"Yes mom! I'm gonna be an intern!"

"Wow," she opens her eyes. "That's very good news" she coughs.

"Are you...fine?"

"I feel pain all over my body,and I'm very weak"

"Was the doctor here?" I ask.

"Yes,he came earlier and gave me some medications" she says.

"Oh,you should be fine-" I begin but she interrupts.

"Jessy, let's be honest with ourselves.. I'm sure we both know I don't have much time left," she coughs again. "The drugs can't keep me alive,the injections and all can't stop me from dying. They're only prolonging the time I have left. I'm sure you know that"

"Mom, don't say that. Please"

"I have to. Stop living in Dreamland where your thoughts constantly tell you I'm not gonna die! I feel myself leaving the earth every single day. And the last thing I want is for you to keep believing the lie you make yourself believe"

I blink at how bitter her words sound.

She's telling the truth,I just can't bring myself to believe it.

With all the anger and sadness in me -sangness- . I get my keys from Amanda,and I drive to a bar.

Any bar that Google map displays.

Any bar I can drink away my sorrows in.

Any bar that'll just let me buy all the alcoholic drink there is

My car feels better,but not too good.

I'm having the feeling it won't last long.

There it is.

I'm standing in front of a very cute bar. It's not too big or too small,but it's a cute size.

I park the car,and I walk inside.

It's not buzzing with people,but I can pick quite a number of people.

The first thing I order is a bottle of tequila. Make that two bottles. Then three bottles.

Okayyy,four now.

I've drank four bottles of tequila and I feel the energy coming..

My vision isn't as clear as it was,but whatever.

My phone buzzes, despite the loud music and I bring it out of my pocket

Justin 7:45pm :
Where are you? You landed three hours ago,and Amanda says you're not home.