His Light

chapter twelve

Micha's  POV

"Can you believe him? I have never been more LIVID in my life, the nerve of that man to just show up after months and act like nothing's wrong. He is just agghh!!" I let out as I paced around in my room

"You need to calm down short one, don't blow a fuse now, besides I thought you didn't care about him anymore, why are you so mad?" Jacob said with a confused frown on his face, he looked worried almost.

"Because.. because I just am okay?! You weren't the one abandoned for no reason, I have every right to be as mad as I am." 

"I'm just saying okay, don't come after me now. I know you actually liked him but you said you were over it. You are right?" His frown deepened, he looked at me almost as if he was trying to read my mind. 

I stared at him not knowing what to say, I know he likes me and I was just starting to like him but I just can't help the way I feel about Jasper, there is just something that makes me feel a deep connection when I'm with him.

"Jakey...." I stretched out.

Sighing disappointedly he looked down at his shoes, I knew he felt hurt but I can't help what I feel, okay... Trust me I do want these feelings to go away, I just do not know how, I want to just say 'screw it' and be with Jake, I mean he makes me happy too and I know he'd never pull a Jasper, yes we're calling it that now.

He stood up from my bed about to walk out of my room, "I understand you want him, I know but I just.. I just thought," he trailed off letting out a deep sigh.

I grabbed his hand walking closer to him "I know Jake, I know," I looked him in his eyes a bit conflicted, "I like you too but I do still like him and him popping up like this is just very confusing, I don't want to be in this situation either but we're here now and walking away from it is not going to make it all okay." 

He still looked away avoiding eye contact but moving his hand into mine and intertwining our fingers, I smiled a bit knowing we are still kind of okay, I really do care about him.

"Jake, look at me," he continued looking out the window, glaring softly, "Jakey... trust me okay, I won't entertain him, I'll stop talking about him completely."

He still looked out the window, his glare disappearing, "Promise me you won't end up going back to him. Promise me." He looked down into my eyes.

"I promise you, I won't." I really don't want to lose Jake, he has shown me that I can trust him, I can't lose him, I hugged him with a smile on my face.

Jasper's POV

"I promise you, I won't." 

I looked up her bedroom window, feeling my dead heart shatter. She really doesn't want anything to do with me. I know I hurt her but I thought we would at least talk about it and work it out.

Jacob looked back at me, glaring,  holding her like his life depends on it, I can't let him have her, I just can't, she is mine, Jacob will not have her. I need her to live, I shouldn't have left her, I was wrong for that yes but what makes him think he can have my soulmate, she belongs with me.