Reki x Langa Oneshots Smut/angst

Now is Only Temporary( angst/ Fluff)

Reki stood atop the tall brick building feet on the edge of its cold concrete ledge.
He stared at the people below, a little girl and her mom laughing and walking down the open streets below.

Rekis mom died when he was 10, leaving him with his dad. He was a decent person till her death when he seemingly started to tubble downhill.
When reki would come home from school his dad would either be gone most likely at a bar, or drunk and passed out on the floor or couch.

He'd forgot what it was like to be loved by someone so much it hurts.

Tears pooling in his Ruby eyes, threatening to fall at any moment. He clenched his fists then stepped off the ledge, expecting to feel the cold air rushing around his body. But was stopped when he opened his eyes to see he wasn't at all falling.
Reki flinched when he felt himself being pulled into someones arms from behind, being embraced with the warmth and smell of honey and lilacs. Reki started crying tears streaming down his face, when he looked back to see it was his roomate Langa. Langa gripped Reki tightly, small sobs coming from above the tall blue haired boy.

Langa usually never cryed, not even when he got the letter that his mom had died, or when his father slapped him in public yelling slurs. So it was odd to reki why he was now.

Reki had his head now shoved into the nook of langas neck. His eyes puffy and red.
"Wh-why would you do this? " stuttered langa tears running down his pale face.
" you should have told me you felt this way, I could've helped you" " Never do that again". " I couldn't stand to lose you to"langa mumbled. His face damp and burning from the salty tears.
" I- I'm sorry" reki whispered into langas sweatshirt.

Langa kissed his forehead.
"Why must you care so much about me? " yelped reki more tears streaming down his rosy cheeks.
Langa paused for a second," I- love you reki". He grimaced as langa was pushing on his fresh cuts just done before.
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Langa and reki quietly walked back down to the dorms, a awkward silence taking up the space between the two.
Once there the two sat down on the couch between the two's rooms. "Can I ask you a couple questions? " asked langa.
"S-sure I guess".reki shifted uncomfortably tugging at his sleeves which where slowly rolling up his forearms. Catching the attention of langa.
Langa frowned, then reached for rekis sleeve In an attempt to pull it up. Reki jumped at the sudden action quickly pulling his arms away from langas reach. " hey stop that"squealed reki. Langa crawled over to him "reki I just wanna help" he pinned reki down sitting on his upper body so he couldn't move. Reki squirmed tugging at his sleeves doing everything to keep them down. Langa struggled with the red haired boy squirming and squealing beneath him.

*You know what fuck this. **

Langa leaned down pressing his lips against reki's. Reki froze, face hot and red from embarrassment. Langa slipped his tounge into rekis mouth exploring every inch of it.Reki let out a small moan before breaking the long kiss panting, a string of saliva connecting the two. Reki caught off guard and confused looked up at the blue haired boy. His eyes were wide tears pooling in his jewel blue eyes. Reki started to breath heavily looking over to see his sleeves had been pulled up revealing rows of fresh and old cuts. Reki jumped up pulling his sleeves back9 down, tears welling in his eyes. Langa quickly rushed over to reki grabbing his small body and embracing him in a warm hug. The smell of lilacs and honey lingering in the air. "I- I'm sorry" whispered reki.

Langa ran to the bathroom coming back with bandages and gauze. He gently wiped off the remaining blood, wrapping a soft cloth around his forearms. Reki winced in pain. "Want some takeout?" Langa asked knowing it was rekis favorite. Reki nodded his head, wrapping himself up in a soft black blanket he'd got for Christmas. His eyelids felt like weights.

(Time skip-nightime)

Reki fluttered his eyes open. He was cuddled up to langas chest wrapped in blankets and pure warmth. He blushed hard his ears red with embarrassment.

**🦐⭐🌺His face was redder then kirishimas hair dye🌺🌚🟥**

*Rekis pov*

Oh fuck- oh shitt, his abs are just- wow, and those lips I can't even-

*End of reki's pov*

Reki slowly moved langas arm from around his waist being careful to not wake up the blue haired boy. He flinched when he stepped onto the loud floor boards, making a creaking sound at every step. Reki tip toed to the bathroom being Shure to shut the door behind him. He stared at himself in the mirror, groaning at all the flaws he could see(but didn't have) his face went a pale white. The intrusive thoughts already leaking into his mind.

*Reki's pov*

Crap not now, not now.

I have Langa now why am I still like this!?
My eyes gaze over to the loose tile in the floor, I slip my hand into it feeling around till I felt the knife id hidden inside a couple weeks ago when I'd moved in.

I stared at the blade- it was just a inanimate object with no feelings, almost like me. Except it had the part I wanted most no feelings. I'd sell my soul to rid my brain of this stupid disease.

I slid the cold blade across my wrist, watching as small drops of blood formed from the lines. I cut deeper each time, salty tears coating the now bloody tiles. I carved the word langa into my arm. He was the one I loved most in this cruel world.

I slightly shook from the amount of blood loss, grabbing bandages and gauze from the cupboard, and lazily wrapping them around my forearms, with just enough care so they wouldn't fall off.

I flushed the toilet so langa wouldn't become suspicious then headed back into the bedroom. I crawled over him looking for a big enough area to flop down on. When suddenly langa shot up into a sitting position. Unfortunately for me I was s
in a rather suggestive position, my legs on either side of his and my butt sticking out slightly.

" woah reki isn't it a bit to early for this ~" langa said softly. Smirking at how red the boy above him was. I- before reki could say a word langa had grabbed him and pulled him close to his body. He sucked slightly on the boys neck leaving reki a squirming moany mess. Langa chuckled releasing his grip on reki and slipping out of the bed. "Langaaaaaa~whyd you have to do that" reki said pouting his arms crossed. "Sorry princess school starts in 20 minutes and I have to study for my exams". Reki groaned loudly" can't you study some other timeee". Langa walked into his bedroom quickly getting clothed for the day. He then walked over to reki kissing him on the forehead "bye babe I'll be back around 3". Langa called then walked out the door. Reki glared at the wall.

*great now I have to be alone with my self all day, that'll be fun.*

(1279 words)

This took me a while lol hope u enjoy it, sorry if it's not the best Im the greatest at fluff and stuff like that lol

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