Reki x Langa Oneshots Smut/angst

underwhelmingly underrated*

This is kinda a vent. I suck at poetry don't come for me.

Silver is your favorite color
You say it reminds you of what life really is
That its dull shine sparks a light in your mind
Its throbbing shine that numbs your mind
Friday night I told you how I hate that shine.
The shine that holds your crimson cries.
The color that layed buried beneath your pale white wrists.

You lied to my face, that color brought you joy just a different kind. One that held a temporary numb to whatever it touched.
Days before I saw that shine, sticking straight from your pocket, as you lye on the damp floor of the gymnasium.

I saw I heard I knew. Those kids from elm Street, calling you slurs. I know cause I am you. When you cry I cry to.

I know. You push the slurs and threats from your mind and cling to the fading words from years ago. Ones that encouraged you not make you want to die. I try to kill time take up my thoughts with ones less dipleating then the ones engraved in my helpless mind.

I saw it play out before my eyes. You coming from the bathroom ,towels wrapped round your pale skin, red seaping through its lines.

I asked. It was the cat.

I heard the shatter and the angry crys. As I sat below you and dad I froze. Will I be you one day.

I look back on the times you asked me for that key. The key to death. I told you I loved you.

You said I was the reason you were like this. I looked up and stared into your eyes.

You don't mean that.

I mean it with all my entirety.
You are the reason I crave such pain.

I distanced myself I kept away. For years it was this way. Overtime you got better but I remained the same.
You never said sorry.

It's 4 years later and now I see what they ment.

I am you.
And I always will be. I love you. I caused your darkest wishes. Now I have to pay by feeling your pain and mine.

In sorry, I killed you so much on the inside. I love you.