Still With you || A sequel to Boy with Luv

Chapter 5

Sia's POV

I was born awkward. Walking with Lucas made me realize it more about how  awkward I could get. I kept walking with my head down. Soft dew was on the ground as some amount of sunlight poured through the sky.

"How have you been? I heard about what happened" 

I knew that Alex was dead worried, watching over me like mother hen. Lucas must have known about it from him.

"It's ok now. He is in the Jail for blackmailing and attempted kidnapping and murder" I said solemnly. I had been brought to my house only after he had went to prison, they didn't want to take any chance.

"I-I" He stammered and scratched his neck and I pulled my sleeves to cover my palms, it was so freaking cold. Lucas was wearing a turtle neck black sweater and his brown coat with black pants. I was covered with my warm woollen robe on top of sweater, I really hated winters.

"I know" He said and I looked at him confused. He knew what?

"What?" I asked as I continued walking forward, but after 5 steps I realised he wasn't walking. I looked back and he was just standing there.

"What's wrong, Chin-Mae oppa?" I asked, using the honorifics.

"I know that you liked me" he said. His tan skin turning red, the blush reaching upto his ears.

I stopped breathing for a second. Oh god, what was I supposed to answer to this. I didn't know how to say no, but I didn't like him like that now. I loved someone else. My heart beats increased their pace as he took one step forward.

"I-I have been thinking about it a lot" He said quietly, I took a step back. I couldn't believe this.

The teenage me had waited for this to happen but now how was I supposed to reject him.

"Luca- Oppa, I" I was at a loss for words.

"I know, I know you like someone else. I have heard your conversations with Alex." I looked up at him, he was smiling.  Why was he smiling like that? Why did it make me feel guilty? Oh god, sometimes I could really not understand myself.

"I know you like someone who doesn't like you back. I go to Bakehyun's room almost every night to make sure he isn't having nightmares" 

Alex started having nightmares, bad nightmares since he had discovered the dead body of his mother. It pained me whenever he called me in the middle of night, shaking and sobbing.

"One night, I had heard you crying over the phone, Sia. It's your life, you can do whatever you want. You can wait for the person you like, or you can move on, with me or someone else. I won't force you or even advice you about it. But just know, you will have me by your side always, as a friend, as a lover or even as your bestfriend's brother I will be there to guide you, ok?" I nodded, sniffled and nodded again.

Was it the cold that made me like this or was it his words. Lucas had just confessed to me, he had handled the rejection in the most respectful manner, I felt so much respect for him, I could only nod in return.

He smiled and ruffled my hair. "Oppa" I started without really knowing what I was going to say. Maybe I should be straightforward like I always have been.

"I liked you a lot when we were little. I am sorry it changed over the course of years. I know it will be hard, but I wanna test my luck and wait for him. I won't let you feel like a second option, because you are not. You don't deserve to be treated like that. I hope you find someone good, equally caring" I finished, looking at him in the eyes, my face felt hot despite the weather and my body was weirdly alive with goosebumps.

He nodded. "Thank you, for clearing it in one go and not delaying it" I just shook my head.

"Also , keep that necklace. It suits you" I nodded hesitantly. 

The necklace was beautiful but it was very expensive and so I decided to not say anything further, he must be stressed already. If I was him, I would not want anymore talk. I plopped on the sofa next to Jason and he shyly moved away from me. Alex sat beside me. His usual chaotic self was now deadly calm.

"I miss her" he said as he snuggled into me. I patted his silky long black hair. I knew who he was talking about. His mother. 

I felt bad for him, he didn't deserve it. I wrapped my hand around his arm and patted it slightly.

"Baekhyun-ahh, she is here. What did I tell you ha? She is always here" I said in a scolding manner. 

My heart clenched seeing the three brothers now sad as we lit a candle for Mrs. Scarlett Min on her birthday. It was ironic wasn't it. The day that was supposed to be happy was always gloomy like this.

Lucas was the first one to pray. He sat down on the ground and joint his hands in front of the candle mom had lit. His words turning into whispers as he talked to his mother. Alex got up, shaking slightly as he bent down and placed something- a white rose. Her favourite flower.

"Happy 50th maa" My eomma let out a sob, Scarlett was her bestfriend.

Jason was the last. The one who was crying the most. Dad hugged him lightly. We hadn't known that Mr. Min and granny had came. Maybe I hadn't seen them. 

It was a custom for us. We all gathered at either of the house and paid respect to auntie.  Mr. Min chuckled slightly while talking to her, forgetting everyone around him. Was that how love was supposed to be?

Will I ever get to experience it, real, free of restrictions and lies? I shook my head and wiped my tears.

All of my family sat in the living room, the atmosphere was still dark but it was ok, everyone was atleast enjoying their meals. I looked at my phone to call Rose and Ari to congratulate on their 7 month anniversary but noticed an unknown number had called me. What if it was him? That number looked familiar and so I dialled it.

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Here is the another chapter!!!!

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The story picks up from here, also, I am having a shitty week, work is a pain in my buttocks.

How's your week going?

I will see you in the next chaper,

Love,

Stuti.