The wildflower Lilac

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Lilacs pov:

I sat in the passenger seat of the car looking out the window at all the trees, its fall so all the leaves are changing colors and it's so beautiful. We sat in a peaceful silence. I was nervous to be out of the house, but I mean I cannot be scared of the outside world forever. I hate putting all this stress onto Ethan- he shouldn't have to deal with his broken little sister. He provides and takes care of both of us.  The only reason we are still good on money is because of underground street races and fights. We haven't gone in forever so I'm guessing we are low on money. All of a sudden, I hear Ethan cough pulling me out of my deep thoughts

"Hey bug, how are you doing? I know we've only been out for like 15 minutes and haven't gotten out of the car but how are you doing?" Ethan says with a soft nervous voice 

"I'm ok" I said with hopefully a convincing voice. I will admit my anxiety is through the roof and I am freaking out a bit, but I can't let fear control me. It's just so hard. I'm terrified of literally everything and I absolutely hate it. I am a fucking street racer and I do underground fight where I fight men twice my size, and now I'm terrified to leave my house? Where did I go wrong-?

I noticed Ethan just staring at me as if I was crazy. He just had pity in his eyes and worry. I felt so bad

"Bug- it's okay if you scared. I will always protect you, I pinky promise" Ethan says as he holds out his pinky still trying to pay attention to the road but also make sure I am doing ok

"I'm fine- but thank you and I pinky promise you to always protect you as well" I held out my pinky interlocking it with his. 

Ethan smiles a little and puts his full attention to the road again. 

Time skips to inside the store 

Everything is fine... no one is going to hurt you.... everything is fine.... no one is going to hurt you...

I kept repeating that to myself in my head. Along with following Ethan around the store like a lost puppy. 

I was walking down the snack alise with Ethan when I started to notice these 2 guys following us around the store. Every time I would turn around to look at them, they would shoot their gaze to whatever item is next to them. let's just say the suck at not making it obvious. I grabbed onto Ethans shirt and started to panic a little. I kept repeating the words to myself and even said it out loud as quite as I could to myself. It wasn't until I was literally choking Ethan with his shirt when he realized exactly how panicked I was. My face was pale and had a terrified expression to say the least. This is EXTACTLY what I was afraid of. Ethan turned around and had panic all over his face once he says my face and bent down to my height and grabbed my shoulders

"Bug what's wrong? You're okay, just breath, ok? In and out, see in and out" Ethan said while trying to calm me down so I didn't have a meltdown in front of everybody in the store. 

I turned around looking away from Ethan very slowly and saw a panicked faces on both the big men following us. I tense at the pure image of these men and turn around and bury my face in Ethans neck and try to calm down by listening to his heartbeat. I slowly started to calm down when I saw how panicked Ethans face was, he was terrified, and I felt bad for almost having a meltdown I just am so afraid. I turn around and don't see the guys there anymore. I look around the whole store. I didn't even realize Ethan's been saying my name this whole time because the only thing I could focus on was the fear inside me. Eating me alive

"Lilac! Lilac! Lilac! Can you hear me?!" Ethan said in a horribly panicked tone

"Ethan... there's 2 guys following us" I say mortified by fear