The foggy air glumly fills the window view on the bus. I wish I never had to go back to highschool but here I am in sophomore year. My name is Shuichi Saihara and I was diagnosed with depression last summer. It's not great and I usually can't find a reason to wake up but I gotta deal with it "Hey Shuichi, why do you look so upset when its the first day?" Kaito asked, He's been a close friend of mine for a while. Kaito is constantly checking up on me and he really is a great friend but he has way to much energy sometimes "I don't know if you ever noticed but unlike you, I don't really like school and Kaede is in almost all of my classes this year! I don't even wanna talk to her after what happened in 8th grade."Kaede was my middle school girlfriend and we both genuinely liked each other. We dated throughout all of 7th and 8th grade but on the last day she said "Shuichi.. I'm really sorry but I don't think we should be together anymore. You aren't the same as you used to be." I didn't know how to react to it and I dropped 7 heavy books on her foot. She tumbled over on instinct and when I tried to help her up I puked all over her head. I avoided her the rest of the day and haven't even seen her since. Maki, Kaito's girlfriend, told him all her classes and Kaede's classes. Unfortunately Kaede is in all but 2 of my classes.
We pull up to the school as I am reminded how tall I am, since 98% of these people standing in the halls are shorter than me. "Hey Kaito, is my height difference akwar-" Kaito is standing next to two girls, Maki and an unrecognizable girl. "Oh sorry! I probably should have told you that I was talking with someone else." Kaito muttered awkwardly. The unrecognized girl looked up at me and it was immediately clear who that was. Kaede Akamatsu, the one girl that I can't even make eye contact with. "Oh Shuichi, I haven't seen you in a while." She said to me, in an annoyed tone. "Oh. I- uh.." A gut wretching feeling in my stomach formed causing a loss of words. I felt puke forming in my throat and rushed to the nearest trash can. I threw up for atleast 20 seconds and turned around to Kaito looking worried.
"Dude, you gotta get over 8th grade. Maki told me Kaede doesn't even care about it anymore. In fact she wants to be friends with you." The thought of Kaede made me hurl in trash again. "I can't get over it. She's been the only girl I ever liked and I puked on her head! I wish that day never happened and we were dating again." I admitted. "You still like her? I thought you hated her!" "I never hated her I was just embarrassed after what happened! I thought that was obvious!" I quickly hurried to class before Kaito could continue this conversation
I sluggishly walked in to class and walked straight into a tardy slip. "Mister Saihara, I am disappointed with you for getting a tardy on the first day. Please sit down." I snatched the slip from her hand and slumped down in my seat on the other side of the classroom. Anything my teacher said slipped right through my mind and I started to doze of before someone hit me in head with a paper airplane. One of the kids near the middle hit me in the head and mouthed "Unfold it." This was Sam Wavers, or my middle school bully. I was expecting some unoriginal comment on the paper but to my surprise it wasn't. "Where did your water bottle go?" I looked down at my bag and my water wasn't there and I looked back up to one his friends holding it. Before I could even realize, he started chugging it. Without even thinking I yelled "GIVE THAT BACK, WHAT THE HELL DUDE!?" I quickly snatched it from him when I heard my teacher scream "MISTER SAIHARA SIT DOWN!" I grabbed the bottle and sat back down in my seat, burying my face in my hands. I got a tardy slip and got yelled at on the first day, this teacher must hate me. The bell wrang and I immediately jumped up to go find Kaito in the halls.
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Danganronpa Despair Cult
FanfictionShuichi is trying to get over the embarrassment he made in 8th grade and talk to Kaede, while Kaede is convinced that despair is the only thing that will help her sudden realization of worthlessnesses