I am nothing

Her life

Her point of view:

I awake with a jolt. The basement door slammed open and woke me immediately. I try my hardest to get into position. My body fighting against my mind as I try to do what ive been taught to do. FINALLY I get into position, knees on the ground, head down, eyes down, hands on my lap with my palms facing up. I am so weak it took far too long... I know better. I am letting master down. Im so worthless. WORTHLESS PIECE OF TRASH. I hate me. As im lost in thought the cell door swings open. I mentally check myself to make sure im in the correct position. I am.... whew...

"Pet, acceptance."

I know this. I curl down so my knees are still on the floor, my face is on the cold concrete, my hands are in front of me lain out palms up. Its called acceptance because I know to accept what ever punishment I deserve. Today while Master was in a meeting. I was at his feet umder the table. I coughed like a pathetic pig. I coughed!! Inturupting the whole meeting and pointing all attention yo me. The room had gotten so quiet... I tried to hold it in. I REALLY DID! But it happened anyways. Im so pathetic, I couldnt even stoo a cough. I deserve this.

My cell door swung open again, Master walked in sighing heavily. I could hear metal clinking together in what sounddd to be a bag. Im not sure though.

"Pet, you know what you did today was wrong. You know you interupted a very important meeting, some of the members were so bothers they couldn't even continue the meeting. How does that make me look pet?"

I started to panick. This isnt knew to me but it never got easier anyways. I knew not to answer. He wasnt really asking anything. They were statements to make it very clear how bad I messed up. Im so pathetic. Im so disobedient.... I deserve this. I need to be taught to do better. I need to learn. I have to.

"Now pet, you know what you did wrong and it was so simple. DISPLAY PET!" He yelled as he turned away from me. Panick now consumed me. This is the worst. I can feel the dizziness trying to take me. I cant stupid body. Stop being so weak! You messed. We messed up. We know better. Take this. Take this punishment and accept it. Thank master for his lenient hand. For his strict hand.

Quickly I got into position.

DISPLAY: Ass up. Knees still on the ground, face on the ground, hands above my head, palms laid out.

I can feel my body shaking. Its so cold down here. I hate that my head fights these punishments. I know I deserve them but I dont want to be in pain, I dont want to hurt. I have to though. To get better for him. To obey him like he deserves. Master is so kind and deserves the best from me.

Master walked back over to me. Bent down beside my waist and put his hand on my butt. I waited silently. Unsure of what was to happen next.

"Pet, ive been too soft with you. Thats my fault. For what is about to happen next is something I should have started years ago. You are nothing. You have no clothes becuase you deserve nothing. You get fed once a week because to feed you more would burden me. You piss in your bed because you deserve nothing more then that."

I felt something knew. My head was screaming at me to run away from it. I am so afraid. What is that? Nobody has touched me there. What is happening? This is new... im so afraid I started breathing heavily. I keep repeating "obey, obey, OBEY, OBEY, OBEY, OBEY!!!! IF MASTER DOES THIS YOU DESERVE IT. TAKE IT. TAKE. IT. TAKE!! IT!!!"

Suddenly he moves, and pulls it away.
Im so confused. I then hear ruffling. I can hear the belt. This calms me as I know it. Then more ruffling. I feel Masters hand on my hip again. Then... his other hand? I feel pressure at my butt. What is happening? He grabs my hips hard and thrusts. I scream. I havent heard my voice in so long. I havent made a peep for so many punishments.... he pulls all the way out and slams in again. Just as hard as last time. I scream again turning my hands onto the cement, scraping the ground trying not to move my butt. He pulls all the way out again, that hurts just as much. I cant even begin to mentally prepare as he slams into my butt again. I scream again and he starts ramming me. Never letting up. Im scraping the ground for dear life, I feel myself fading and I feel something wet running down my legs. Did I pee? Thatll be another punishment. I scream again and again as he goes in and out again and again. Master pulls my head up by my hair. I see the ceiling of my cell now, the black dots all around, panting hard in my ear he says "this is what you should expect from here on out pet. Understand me? Speak!" He screams at me as he slams in etremely hard "Yes Master" I scream with the last big breath I took. The next thing I know my head was smashed into the ground. Darkness.