Will I Ever Be loved?

Bad Feeling

Chapter 24

The last few days have been a bliss I guess you can say. Once we had gone back to Mike’s house we were both just caught up in being with each other but in silence. Yheah we would talk here and there but it was more like if we were just appreciating our presence instead of talking. Mike would hold me close to him and just caress me as much as he could when I was home.

Weird enough we were not touchy at all it was just a caring hug or a never ending cuddling. We have not even made out like we used to either. Instead we give each other these small passionate kisses showing our love for each other. Personally I did not have an issue with it at all but my days with Mike were ending and well I couldn’t help but stay in and not go to school.

Unfortunately it was Friday meaning I only had today and some of the weekend before I went back home with the ohhh so loving family. I cannot help but think of Rose and Austin every time I mentioned family. We spoke every day during lunch or just right before I went to bed so that of course they could check up on me. It didn’t matter though because I liked being checked in by people who truly cared for me.

Lying in bed at seven in the morning really makes you overthink things. Mike was in the shower so I scooted into his side where it was still warm. I loved being on his side of the bed engulfed in his alluring natural scent. He really was something and I couldn’t help but feel all giddy inside.

“Sam, are you okay? If you are not feeling well you can tell me?”

I turned to look up at him already changed into some blue jeans and white t-shirt approaching me with a concerned face. “I’m fine” I told him with a reassuring smile.

He still looked at me concerned and sat down in front of me while putting the back of his hand on my forehead. “I’m fine Mike honestly, it’s just I don’t want to go in today that’s all.”

“Why? What’s wrong?” he said as he laid down in front of me gazing into my eyes. God I could stare into them forever. How could I tell him that he meant the world to me? I wish he could feel how much I really loved him. There were really no words; I don’t know I felt like I was going to lose him even after everything. It was just one of those moments where I’m jumpy. “Sam.” Crap I forgot he asked me something. Should I tell him or just let go?

“I just don’t want to go and well Monday the family is back so I want to pack beforehand that’s all” I said with a tired voice. I really had to think of a happy moment because I felt as if I was going to break down for no apparent reason. Lost those were my exact emotions at the moment and it did not help that I had this bad feeling.

Mike pulled me into his side and just held me tightly in his arms. “Sam you can stay with me I don’t mind and besides I have wanted to ask you if you want to move in with me. I can’t sleep without you, you and I both know that.” he said with a chuckle.

I knew that he wanted me to move and I wanted too I did. I did not want to be one of those girlfriends that are just munching their boyfriend’s wallets. I told myself that I wouldn’t move in until I got a job. “And you know I would but not until I graduate please.”

He sighed but nodded anyways, “okay that’s fine and hey why don’t we both play hooky and just go out and watch a movie or something okay.”

“I’d like that” I said while kissing him lightly on his lips. After that I showered and got dressed into some comfortable clothes. We spent that whole day just laughing and holding each other while we floated from one game to the next in the carnival. He really knew how to brighten my day even after all the commotion of my emotions.