Stuck between You and Him || heejaywon ✓

my other half, my soulmate - pjs

" Love , can you pack my things for three days ? It's our annual team building and outing tomorrow" Jay announced in a slightly loud voice for Heeseung to hear since he's at the kitchen washing the dishes.

Heeseung furrowed his brows. Why he hasn't invited him to come with him this time ? Jay didn't even mentioned it to him. It's just now that he's leaving the next day.

" Okay love! But am I not invited ?"

He then heard a pair of footsteps approaching their room.

" Umm , it's for the company only this time love. We can just have our own next time when I come back. Do you want that ?"

Heeseung glanced up at him , he smiled.

" Okay ! " He instantly agreed.

It's always like that . Whatever he wants or suggests , it's okay for him .. he'll give it right away . The word " no " is forbidden when it comes to him.

"Alright ! We'll plan it out when I come back or you can search for a nice place for us . Maybe two or three days , it's up to you. I can take a leave. " The younger suggests. He knows Heeseung loves preparing this kind of stuffs so he's sure that he'll come up with an idea right away. He likes searching up for things in the internet and most of the time , Heeseung's suggestions didn't failed his expectations.

Heeseung just hums as an answer. Right now , he's busy packing his boyfriend's things. Jay hugged him from the back and rested his chin on his shoulder.

The older turned his head to face him but Jay took it as a chance to peck him on the lips. Jay could barely feel the sparks but as for Heeseung , there's still fireworks in him but a bit weird . Maybe he felt what his partner feels , we don't know.

Heeseung couldn't say anything , he just smiled after. And muttered the words , " i love you "

" hmmm ... I love you too , love " Jay responds . It felt different for him saying this now . Before, whenever he says those words , butterflies just bursts inside his stomach. But now , he's saying it as if he was forced to. Or maybe , no feelings at all .

He feels like it's wrong that he feels something like that because it's his boyfriend.

A part of him says that he would still be with his boyfriend but there's also a part that makes him think of leaving him behind.

But then , by just thinking about it makes him feel weird. He doesn't want to leave him. He can't take it if Heeseung will be alone . He doesn't want Heeseung to be sad and cry because of him. He doesn't want to waste the relationship that they built and shared for years. He can't accept the idea of them being separated. It just feels absolutely wrong.

But tomorrow , he'll be with Jungwon. It's three days straight and he doesn't know what will happen. Will he able to rethink his decisions ? Or he'll just settle for their current status.

He's been somewhat avoiding Jungwon these days just to have time for Heeseung but he can tell that the other noticed it. He can see how he pouts whenever he turns down his date proposals. And he doesn't even drive him home now. He feels he's not doing his duties as a boyfriend to Jungwon.

What can he do ? He has only one body and he can't turn down Heeseung's request . He also wants to be with his original boyfriend and being in this set up makes him a total sinner to him . He must do things that Heeseung wants for his conscience and peace of mind. Because everytime he's with Jungwon , he feels that there's eyes staring at him and watching him from afar. He can't do things comfortably with Jungwon and they can't go out on dates since he knew that someone would tell Heeseung that he's dating another guy.

Though he knows that Heeseung is understanding and doesn't believe in rumors easily , there's still a big chance that he'll know about it with a solid proof .

And maybe that day will be his greatest fear. He knows that this isn't just a simple problem and if Heeseung will know , it's probably also the end of him.

He feared that , trust me. But he can't quit it now that the feelings he had for Jungwon grows in him. He can't turn back now . Screw the future . He ain't letting go of Jungwon , neither Heeseung. He'll have them both for himself.

" love , you're spacing out " Heeseung nudge him as he really spaced out. There's a lot of concerns in his mind .

" Oh ! Did I?" He giggles .. as if nothing concerns him as of the moment.

" Yeah ? Do you have a problem ? Mind telling me ?"

Then there he goes . Everytime Heeseung would be this sweet and caring , he instantly became soft for him. It's really Heeseung's love language. He's perfect for a boyfriend. The ideal one to be exact.

" Don't worry love. I'm just thinking that you'll be alone here for three days. And the idea of it makes me sad. You know , I don't want you to be alone for too long. "

" Silly. What am I , a child ? Don't worry . I'll be okay here and wait for your return. I'll wait for your cuddles and kisses. " He then winked at Jay and the other held his chest as if he got hit by an arrow. So dramatic.

Both of them giggled in an instant. These moments are precious to the both of them. Even though Jay had a change of heart , he still believes that Heeseung is his other half , his soulmate. They're more of a lover. And if there's really a next life , he'll choose to be with Heeseung's side , whatever form they'll be. It's sweet to think . They're so attached but the other is heading to the opposite road.

It's complicated . Really complicated. But it's on Jay . Who will he choose ? In which side is he ?

Because if he'll keep Heeseung , it's just like he's creating an imaginary knot , tied on his neck while he flirts with someone who also doesn't know that he's been fooled by him.

Poor Jungwon . He doesn't know that he's slowly ruining a relationship.

Poor Heeseung . He doesn't know his boyfriend is stabbing him on his back.

Poor Jay . He can't decide who to choose .

I just hope Jay would figure out what he really wants soon . Before everything turns into a chaos.

Because we don't know what's on Heeseung's mind right now.