I'm sorry

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Dear anyone out there,

Last night I had a dream about when everything was normal and okay.

When we were an actual happy family. I dreamed about what you guys did when I had my first loose tooth, or my first date, or even when I had my first breakup. Mum if your reading this, I want to tell you thank you for being there for me when those things happened.

Dad I want to say thank you for being there for my birthdays and trying to get to my party's even though you had work. I still wish I never did that on my eighteenth birthday, I wasn't thinking and I thought we were all safe, and that it was just going to be fun and adventurous.

Then it happened and I wish that I can put it all behind like everything, but those were little things. They are to important to try and forget. I caused people harm and that's what caused mum to have a liquor habit, she started smoking even more than before.

Mum you told me that it helps with all the stress so I tried and that's why I started to smoke with you. I stopped smoking with you because you never talked nor looked at me, that caused me to go to where my free place is and smoke.

I thought that's were I met April but she told me that's she has always been there. Where? When? I always asked her but she wouldn't answer me.

April if your reading this I'm truly sorry and tell Mathew that I love him. But Mathew if you're reading this I'm really sorry. I'm sorry that I ran away and never said goodbye to you. If you read this in time you will get to see her. She looks just like you. Angel Lee Wood. You told me that you loved that name. Because she has my middle name and your last name. I dropped her off at day care today when my parents weren't home. I love you with all my heart <3

Yours truly,

Sara