Regret (louis tomlinson fan fiction)

Lyndsay's P.O.V I walked to school on my own. I was only wearing black jeans and a white T-shirt that said "Hipster please" it was cold today and i regreted not wearing a jumper.

I only had to walk another block until i got to school. I was dreading going to school. Everyone picks on me and there is a group of boys that call them selfs "the boys" very thoughtful namel *note the sarcasm*

i was at the school gates and i was getting really scared and worried. i walked into school and thats when it started "fattie" "worthless" "ugly kluts" "why dont you just kill yourself already?" and much more rude and worse things said to me.

im overweight and i dream to be a victoria secret model after i finish school. this is my final year and i cant wait to finish school! When i leave im going to loose weight and get a job to move to americia and become a victoria secret model.

I head to my locker and put my bag in. And take my books out for my first class. I look at my timetable and I have English first I have English with louis tomlinson my crush! He has brown hair that is extremely sexy and the most amazing eyes!

But there's just one problem..

He's my main bully.

I know what your thinking why would I like someone that bullies me? Well who wouldn't like louis? He doesn't like me though *sigh*

I head to class and take a seat at the back of the class. Mrs Greg walks in and starts the lesson I don't pay much attention.

Mrs Greg askes the class what they want to do when they leave school. I put my hand up and say "I want to be a Victoria secret model" the class burst out laughing and louis says "Your to fat and ugly to be a model!"

Tears well up in my eyes but i cant let anyone see me crying!

The bell finally goes and I head to my next class *skips the rest of the day* when I walk home it starts raining really bad and worst of all im wearing a white shirt. and just my lick today i was wesring a bright orange bra! so I run home.

I'm so tired by the time I get home. I .walk inside and go to my room and think about what has happend today

I start crying and go to my bathroom and get my razor out. I pull my jumper sleeve up and look at my other cuts I did preevesly.

*FLASHBACK*

It was another normal day getting called names by everyone I couldn't take it anymore I decide to go to my bathroom and get a shower once I'm finished I do something I never though I would do. I get out a razor and press it down on my skin. It goes through my skin and I slide it up my arm it leaves a satisfying Feeling Blood starts poring out and leaves a pool of blood around me.

*END OF FLASHBACK*

I press the razor down on my skin and slide it up my arm I do it again and do it one more time I then clean up the pool of blood around me and wash my arm.

I walk out of the bathroom and decide to take a walk. I go outside and start walking. I look at the sky and see dark rain clouds. I decide to walk home. When I get Inside I smell a delicious smell go up my nostrils.

I walk to the dinner table and see that dinner is ready. My mum yells for my 12 year old twin sisters to come to the dinner table. My sisters are called Alexandra but everyone calles her Alex and paije. My dad walks in 2 minutes later and everyone begins to eat dinner.

It's silent but not a awkward silence. My mum askes me what I did at school today. I say Learn. Eat. Learn she nods her head and askes paije and Alex what they did today. Alex does a huge smile and says "Liam and I are going out!" Then paije says "Connor and I are going out!"

My mum and dad look at each other ten back to paije and Alex. They both start asking questions about there boy friends. I finish up my dinner and go to my room.

I get chaned into my piglet onesie! Then get into bed and fall into a deep sleep. I dream about me and louis running away together and living happily ever after and me being a model!

But just as I was near the end of my dream my alarm clock of course has to go of and spoil my amazing dream.

I get up and look at myself in the mirror my hair is a mess and I have big bags under my eyes. I decide to take a shower and get changed into my clothes.

I'm wearing a black tank top with a purple jumper over the top. I'm wearing ripped red jeans and floral doc martins. I then put on love heart earrings and a peer necklace to finish my look.

I don't bother putting on makeup. I head down stairs and put 4 peices of toast on. Why I wait I turn on the tv and spongbob is on! I smell something burning and look in the kitchen.

My toast is on fire!! I start to panick and I get water in my hands and throw it on the toast it doesn't do anything!

I scream for my mum to come and when she comes she screams and puts the toast in the sink and turn on the water. She looks at me and I give a sheepish look and tell her I forgot about the toast because I was so interested in spongebob

I decide to skip breakfast and go straight to school. It's going to be another horrible year. :(

It's my graduation and I can't wait to get out of this place! Once it's over louis comes over to me. I thought he was going to appollagise to me. I thought wrong.

He says "you know I'm gonna miss calling you fat." He starts laughing and goes away. My parents look at me strangely and my sisters say oooh lyndsayy's saying by to her boyfriend!

I roll my eyes and get in the car. Once everyone else is in the car we drive back home.