was i ever good enough for you

18.

Massimos pov
Love is a very different word,and my maria my mi amor I married her because of our families but I fell in love with her nature she was fearless and her beauty was breath taking and still is,and her french accent is still strongly there,but I could never confess my love for her until one day I got guts and confessed my love for her and she did the same,yet I could never show her my love,and I don't know why,sure we have 4 children already that already have there own children,I just can't show her my love,while thinking I went to my room,and saw maria was not there I wonder where she is,I took out my laptop and worked

It was night when maria came in the room looking lost in thought
"Is everything alright mi amor"I asked her and she jumped in fear
"Yes, everything is fine"she say quickly,and went into the bathroom not before taking her some clothes,after 10 mins I heard the shower stop and after another 5 mins she came out with her hair in a towel she sat by the dresser and started doing her skin care routine,I watched her until I heard her spoke
"What's wrong?"she asked me looking at me through the mirror
"Nothing"I say turning back to my laptop
"can we call what we have love Massimo"she asked me turning to me,I looked at her and walked to her making her stand up,I kissed her forehead and said
"It is love mi amor"I said
"Are you sure, because this love feels one sided"she says I could see tears starting to come out of her eyes,she took my hands off her face and went to the bed,and slept

I could not sleep I have been tossing and turning for 5 hours now it is currently 1 am and I kept on thinking of what maria told me,it was bothering me that the love of my life thought I did not love her,I stood up and decided to go downstairs,I saw the kitchen light was on I took my gun just in case it is a robber,I went in and saw bani sitting there working,while drinking coffee what is she doing up
"What it is Grinch"she asked still working
"What are you doing up"
"I am always up at this time,you?"
"Could not sleep"
"Let me guess,she told you how she feels"
"Yes"
"Take a seat,coffee?"she says looking at me and taking off her specs,I nodded my head and she took out a mug
"Now listen,I know maria for long,and she is not someone who shares her feelings easily,she has a lot and I mean a lot of secrets you don't know about but you are going to find out about it soon,don't stress yourself about that,but anyways maria told me about your whole relationship,do you love her?" I nodded my head at her question
"Are you positive, because she rejected andrea for you"
"Who the fuck is Andrea" I asked a bit angry
"Easy there don't get all red eyes on me,but anyways Andrea is a handsome man when I say handsome I mean a six pack,tattoos blue eyes and grey black hair,and when I say he is fine I mean he is fine and did I mention he is Russian"she says finishing her sentence in one breath
"Are you down gushing over Andrea"I say clenching my fist
"No not actually but,I can see you at getting mad so I will stop right there anywhore,what I am trying to say is,maria loves you and you are to much of a fucking dick to show her that,with what maria went through she actually deserves to be loved"wait what did maria go through
"What do you mean by with everyone she went through" I say,she sighed
"It's not my place to tell you that"she say and takes a sip of her coffee
"What happened to you"I asked her after a while
"Many things happened to me"she says looking in my eyes,she is the only one in the hole family who has the same eyes as me
"The tattoo on your heart,with the N in the middle and Angel wings,what does the N stand for" I asked,I noticed that her eyes started tearing a bit,but she blinks it away
"The N stands for Nova"she says
Nova?

Precap:my little Nova