TW: S/A, S/H, OVERTHINKING, UNDERAGE DRINKING, ABUSE
"Here we are" I tell nick, i don't know why but i tend to say the obvious.
"Thanks captain obvious!" He chuckles. Fuck, hes really been getting on my nerves recently. But hes my boyfriend, so i dont mention it and walk further in to this hell hole of teenagers making out, smoking, dancing, drinking and other... things if you know what i mean. honestly, i dont really like being gay, due to the hate and fetishization and all, but i do like being gay for one reason. we're smart. we cant accidentally get pregnant (well, most of us anyway), we have some what good taste and we dont get hit on by weirdos.... unless you're at a gay bar. trust me, its a mess there. but anyways, of course i sneak my way into the kitchen to drink vodka but i run into a bit of a dilemma, theres no mixer. but my alcohol tolerance is low today since i sorta cant give a shit right now and i down a cup of pure vodka which is kinda hard but oh well.
ONE HOUR LATER
i want to cry. i drank way too much and i cant think. all i know is that im too fucking drunk, im going to throw up and nick has fucked off with his mates. leaving me, left behind, on the verge of tears. my eyes start to shut..
and guess who i see, ben. the fucker who sexually assaulted me. he never said sorry. i hate him. he sits beside me but i cant tell what hes up too.
"Whatt the fuck dooo you wanttt" my speech is slurred and wobbley.
"Nothing,"
hes definitely up to something.
"why do you have to be so uptight charlie, ever since i 's/aed' you you haven't trusted anyone" he snaps in a strange tone.
"shut it, you bastard. you know why." my tone is much more firm now. "Please lay off. Let me... take you somewhere... " oh fuck, i try to fight back but i just.. cant
"no, no, no, no, NO!" i try to scream but i cant. i can only whisper.
Next thing i know im in the 4th story bathroom. no ones up here except Ben and I. shit shit shit. whats he gonna do to me. my eyes begin to shit... no... "stop.. "
