IS THIS LOVE?

Chapter 15

"Joonie?" Namjoon almost shivered as Jin called out his name.

Namjoon pretended he didn't hear him, and kept on reading the book.

"Are you fine now? How are you feeling? By the way you don't have to eat the hospital meals from now on, i got your food here. I made your favourite breakfast, should i plate it?" Jin asked with an excited smile.

"No, i had some fruits no need to get yourself busy with my stuffs, there are people who can take care of me." Namjoon replied in a cold way.

"There are surely more people, who can help you, but I'm not any other people, I'm your husband." Jin said with a tinge of hurt in his voice.

Namjoon chuckled," isn't it you who left me? Shouldn't I be the one who was supposed to do so?"

"And what did I do? What were my faults Joonie, may I ask?" Jin asked in a teary voice.

"Faults? Your faults? Nah..faults are mine , I'm a bad husband, you are the victim here, i used to beat you, torture you, i even fucked you real bad, but never made love to you. Never took you to shopping, never held your hands, helped you with household chores..faults are mine, I'm a bad husband. And doesn't your brother think a monster like me should be chained behind the bars." Namjoon said with an ironical voice.

Jin gulped then said," Joonie, i know you did bad to me, i know you are really possessive about me. I-i have never cheated on you, after our marriage, you did it only out of insecurity that i might leave you, i might not be by your side. But i also know you are not like this. Nobody is born devil, society make them do wrong, as it lacks mercy and kindness and compassion. You, i assume faced the same. Because the Kim Namjoon i know, is a way more softer person. Share your pains with me, i may not remove it forever, it's a scar and will be with you forever but all I can do is i can soothen it. Share your sorrows with me i can't erase the moments of your sorrows but i can surely hear you cry, until you asleep, then maybe we can fulfil your heart with some sweet, beautiful memories. Show me where you hurt? Show me your wounds, share your past, all of your insecurities, anxieties why did you decide to go this rough on yourself? You have never been like this." Jin tilted his heads as drops of warm fresh tears left his eyes.

Namjoon was still like a statue, standing by the big window of the VIP hospital room, he was a bit trembling. Jin took careful, silent steps towards him and held him tightly from backside, he attached his head to Namjoon's back and started crying. Namjoon's heart raced so bad, his heart was wrecking in immense pain. He couldn't take it anymore, he placed the book on the window-pane and turned around to hold his husband in his embrace then he sobbed hard, drenching Jin's shirt with fresh, warm tears. Those were words truly affected him, those words he really needed to hear, he craved to hear. He cried loudly and his hold become tighter as hearthaching memories of his traumatized childhood flashed one by one before his eyes. He took Jin's hand and placed it against the left side of his broad chest "it pains here Jin..it really pains here, i'm wounded, I'm so so devastated, can you please stay with me? Will you save me? With all your love?" Namjoon cried out loudly, he felt weak on his knees, as he knelt down before his love and hugged his waist. Jin shut closed his eyes and held Namjoon's head and started caressing his hair softly.

"I'll happily do that, I'll stay."

They both cried until they are weak. Now Namjoon was eating with a dimple smile on his face, what Jin made for him.

"Oh Jin! Won't you tell me, how's our baby?" Namjoon asked.