My Obsession

NINETEEN

" Durga  why sidhi is being this cranky ha woh ro bhi ra ha hai .what happened  to her mere nochu ko kya hogaya hai ha " by that sidhi dada started  patting her and making  her clam .

" woh toh pata hai siddharth  ki bhina ek pal bhi nahi rahta and also he always do video call in minutes and sometimes he will get her with him  and sometimes  he will come here in hours  to hours because  papa and beti ko har dusare ko dekhe or bina feel kiye nahi rahapayege. That's why whenever  he goes out of town ,state or country  he will accompany  her with the help of me  actually  siddharth  ki  oxygen  and his world surround  by his little  jaan and her too and also ours too.

" Hmm  that's right phir woh ayi nahi abhi tak usko tho zar suffocation  start hoge just like our jannu phir kyu nahi aye".

" woh ayegi kyuki woh ak   busy meeting  mai thi or ab woh katam bhi hogaya or woh jaldi kid drive kar ke ajayege because  he informed   me now and also he is going crazy and get over heels too ".

" toh jannu  now your papa will come now please be clam ha dada will sing a lubby for  you meri jaan ".

" ap bhi na jannu ke sath raha kar bacchi ban gayi aur mere purina  Ashok ashique  bhe agaye ".

" woh toh hai kyu ki hamari  jannu nai sab ka zindagi badalgayi aur  hamari zindagi ki thara bhi ban Gayi".

" Did you know when I came to know  about me being dada  I was very happy  that day like the happiness  when I came to know  about our siddharth  times  and when my world crashed down when I came to know about  when sana decided  to abort  it and  she is in process too. You know I was praying  to god for the first   time in my to not make that happen  and when we reach reach in hospital  and  heard that she is in abortion  theatre  that time my heart churns  and get relive when i got to know baby  is safe .  You know  every one here for getting  a girl child but noone get that luck her first steps ,calling papa aur dada by her sweet voice ,sounds of her bangles and payals it's a heavenly feeling  . Because  girl childs are gift when our family  priest said in our family their will only a birth of a girl that  time it haunts me because  I dont know when it will come in our sids generation  or his child generation  but I am very impatient   too  . When sid said about sanas pregnancy  I only pray for healthy baby  girl child even boy also I will happy but for me I need a baby  girl that's its . When  we got to know about  gender  being  a girl I was beyond world not only me  everyone  because  only a girl  will be in this family  so   . And also I had dream to hold our jannu  to  hold first time and I did to and I am very proud that I had hold jannu first before  her parents  . When I  hold her I got the feeling of holding  sid for the first time  and when I see her facial feature I  become  emotional as we say children  will be exact replica of  their parents   and especially  girls will be like their mother if our jannu  features  will be like sana then also I will love her like this for me my jannu is important  than anyone even more  than sid too . As I said  about their facial features when I saw her I exactly saw me in  her I feel like I am her father  and it's also  true  I am her father as babies   first word   will be maa aur papa but our jannu is dada    and that day I was very grateful to god even I am but I feel most precious  person . And that time I was very thankful  to sana also gifting her to us even with her will or without  her will but also I was angry with her too when I remember  about  she decided to  abort  our jannu to end our little jaan . But now my life is fulfilled tommorow  I will resign from our company  too I need to spend my each and every  single  time with my daughter  " by that he wipe his tears which were coming out from his  eye .

" ap toh hamesha uske sath de na phir bhi ".

" I cant even think about  a minute  to make  myself  detach from  her ".