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So about the end of 2020 start of 2021 I started to be more conscious of my weight, I had already been dealing with problems from my weight but it had gotten worse I wasn't able to hold in food if I had ate it and that would happen almost everyday until I stopped eating but my friend and started to force me to eat. So I would puke again until I was forced to try and hold in the food cause I would let myself/for e myself to throw it up. Eventually I was able to hold in food and I had gotten better about not worrying about my weight. But I'm getting worse now, every meal I've ate today I puked up, a few days ago I could eat a bit and not puke it up but now I can't hold anything in and I'm not sure what to do. The friend that had forced me to eat last year doesn't know I've been throwing up my meals and I don't want them to find out. I'm scared.