vent book

biological father

I was listening to all I wanted by Paramount and it started reminding my of my father cause he would give me all this stuff as an excuse of not being in my life. But all I wanted was him. I wanted my biological father to be in my life. But he Doing something else. We didn't even have to do anything I just wanted to hang out with him. He would get me divices instead of hanging out with me. He would say he was gonna come eat lunch with me then not show up. I wouldn't eat those day cause I Waited until lunch was over for him, most days he did that the teachers forced me to eat something so I wouldn't pass out. Then I kinda stop eating a bunch in general. Cause when you don't eat for a few days or only eat a bit. Hunger kinda stops. I still don't eat a lot. Also when he didn't show I would cry for the rest of the day. I have shed to many tears for that man. I'm done with it all. I don't even know if I should give him another chance. I've gave him so many chances in the past I'm done with it all