vent book

i miss my grandpa

I forgot what he looks like
I forgot what he sounds like
I forgot him fricken name
I didn't even get to say bye
I was about 10 when he was tooken off life support. He was always there for me. But I couldn't be there for him. My Nana feared I would be scared of him, with all the tubes and wires. He was the best grandpa you could ask for. But I couldn't be there for him. Now my gg (grandma) has cancer and I haven't been able to check on her. I don't know if she's ok. I'm worried. I'm sitting in my floor crying. I don't wanna lose her too. I CAN'T lose her. I want my grandpa back and I want my grandma to be ok.