JJ Maybank

Part 6

Waring!!!!!

TW: SELF HARM WILL BE IN THIS CHAPTER SO IF THAT MAY TRIGGER YOU OR CAUSE YOU UNCOMFORT PLEASE SKIP

ALSO IF I SEE ANY INAPPROPRIATE COMMENTS YOU WILL BE BANNED.

"Wow Kie thanks for distracting the guard so well," Pope says sarcastically, "it's not like we could have been shot or worse sent to prison." 

"Hey you guys were making a lot of noise," Kie says, "I'm right aren't I Rose?"

JJ saying I was his girlfriend made me a little distracted. Like why didn't he just say sister or literally just best friend? Anyway, so I basically was zoning out and didn't respond to anyone.

"Oh she's just flustered I called her my girlfriend," JJ says without giving the group any context. Thanks, JJ!

"Wait you guys are dating?!?" Kie says excitedly.

"Finally. JJ I thought you were scared to tell her how you feel." John B says which makes me laugh.

"Wow, that really fucking backfired didn't it JJ?" I say.

"What?" John B asks.

"Rose, John B's thinking about this other girl, not you so don't worry," JJ said.

"Okay now I'm confused," Pope says.

"JJ said to the guard I was his girlfriend as an excuse to get out and so he was trying to make fun of me but then John B just exposed JJ and now he's trying to deny it," I explained to the group.

"Yeah, except I never said that about you," JJ says still trying to convince me.

"Oh wait you said that about that one girl that works with you didn't you?!?" John B says remembering. 

"Yeah you're so stupid," JJ says.

I remember feeling every piece of my heart shatter. I mean here's the boy that I love and he and his best friend tell me about a different girl that he likes. Of course, I didn't show it because that would ruin everything.

"Yeah, whatever. We all know you love me," I say like I'm confident but actually just like I said I had to pretend to be confident to not fuck with things.

"Fine don't believe me," JJ says, "I can't control what you think."

"Fine," I say back.

"Fine," he says again.

"You already said that," I say and we kind of just keep bickering.

"Guys, guys! Stop!" Kie says like a mother, "you guys need to chill out. It doesn't matter what you think or not you're best friends and you're annoying me. So shut up!"

"Fine," I say.

"Fine," he says and I consider going at it again with him but mama bear Kie scares me.

I end up saying that I want to go home and so John B begins to drive to my house. 

The rest of the way home me and JJ ignore each other and I'm starting to really hate that I did that. What if I ruined everything? 

(JJ)

What the fuck is wrong with me. Why couldn't I have joked around or something? What if I ruined everything?

(Rose)

I assumed that JJ wasn't coming to my house which was probably good so I could get a good cry in being kinda rejected and all. 

I get inside and to my surprise, I just start laughing which hurts more than crying. I try to stop but it feels like I can't. I started to think I was going crazy and just started overthinking every single little thing. That's when I decided I couldn't stay clean for much longer. So I ended up going to my room getting into my closet and finding it. My pencil sharpener.

I'm not going to go into much more detail about what happened but I ended up crying myself to sleep and being pissed at myself at the same time.

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(JJ)

"What the hell dude!" I said to John B when we got back to his house.

"I thought you guys were dating!" John B says.

"Maybe I should tell the group about Sarah Cameroon huh?" I say, "If I'm fucked you should be too."

"Cmon man it was an accident," John B says.

"Y'know what I'm outta here," I respond.

I end up going to sleep back at my house and thankfully my dad's asleep and when I woke up to leave (I leave really early just in case) so I was safe.

(Rose)

I wake up and immediately remember the night before. All I remember thinking is SHIT!

Everything was so fucked up. With JJ, like what the hell, and now sometimes I have to hide these fucking cuts from my friends when it's so fucking hot outside. At least it's on my legs, I just can't go swimming and have to wear longer shorts.

So I decide to put on some longer shorts with a bikini bottom under, a bikini top, and a shirt on top thinking that maybe I can go swimming with the shorts on but I don't wanna get my underwear wet.

I end up biking to John B's house which is kinda far away but it lets me think about stuff and listen to music so that I hopefully don't lose it on everyone.

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I get to John B's house and everyone is there except for JJ which makes me worry he went back to his dad's because of me. 

"Hey Rose we need to talk," Kie says and she drags me out of the room.

"What," I ask.

"What was that last night?" Kie asks, "you and JJ are so close what the hell happened?"

"I don't know I guess we just fought," I say.

"Well, are you mad at him?" Kie asks.

"No of course not it was just some bickering," I say, "Why what happened?"

"John B says that he went back to his dad's house and that he hasn't heard from him since," Kie says and my heart drops.

"Did he take the gun?" I ask.

"No, why?" Kie says.

"What if he's fucking hurt?!?" I yell at her, "Did any of you think about that?!"

"Listen Rose he'll be fine trust me, he always is," Kie says.

"You didn't see him after the last time he went to his dad's. He was so hurt mentally and physically," I say and Kie goes quiet so I just went outside to try and call JJ again to see if he answers which he doesn't.

All I can think about was where JJ was and if he's okay will I waited for him.