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Jonathan Knight- Anxiety Attack

(This imagine is based off the real life experience for Jon when he walked off stage because of his anxiety and having panic attacks so no means of making fun of him or anything it's just simply an imagine of you being there for him. To talk and comfort him giving him encouragement to perform. Enjoy:)

-YN's POV-
It was in the middle of their tour Face The Music, it was a start of their transition from Hangin Tough to adult ish type of music but still grabbing teenage girl's attention. I'm back stage as the guys are getting prepped to get on. I noticed Jon has been awfully quiet. When he's quiet I know there's something wrong but he normally doesn't like to talk about his feelings to me or the guys. He just kept to himself which wasn't healthy at all. He needs someone to talk to and I want to be that person. Back story is Jon and I met during his hangin tough tour in New Jersey and let's just say it was love at first sight. He told security to invite me backstage to talk to me, we exchanged numbers and have been talking ever since. He asked me to be his girlfriend revealing me to the world that I was his girlfriend. It truly made me the happiest girl of the world because I listened to their music quite a lot since they first started their debut album. So I was pretty much a blockhead only Jon was my favorite. Was that a coincidence?

Back to present now, when I noticed Jon wasn't talking much, he was getting hair, makeup and wardrobe prepped and he got done then I came up caressing his shoulder gently looking at him with my (E/C) eyes.

Yn- are you okay babe?

I asked softly looking at him and he looked at me giving me a smile nodding

Jon- yes baby I'm fine, just been off tonight that's all

He said looking at me with his dark puppy like eyes. I knew he wasn't telling the truth entirely but I didn't want to bug him too much so I just let it go giving a slight nod.

Yn- you'll do amazing, you always do

I said with words of encouragement. I knew he low key needed it then he smiled nodding. I kissed his cheek gently and he pecks my cheek softly. We both heard the manager announced for the boys to prep to get on stage. Jon looked kinda.. idk not well like he's sick, he's pale on the face. He usually had soft and light rosy cheeks I absolutely adore. I didn't wanna worry too much so I gave him a smile wishing him luck then I walked away to go to my spot in the crowd ofc it's front row, how convenient.

About 20 minutes into the concert, they were performing one of their songs from their Face the Music album. Jon was sweating profusely which I don't see him sweat that much but this is the first time I've seen him sweat this much compared to the other guys that were performing just fine. All the sudden Jon walked off stage leaving the fan girls screaming at Jon, not rudely ofc, they were worried just as much as I was. The guys had concerns on their faces especially his brother Jordan. They seen me looking at me signaling me to go see if he's okay.

I left that crowd in the audience heading over to backstage where security and the medic was around. Oh my God, it's serious so I came up to Paul, one of the security guards.

Yn- what's going on with Jon?

I asked worried and he looked at me

Paul- medic is saying he is experiencing an anxiety attack

I was running my fingers through my hair

Yn- I knew something was wrong, he looked extremely pale and he was sweating a lot than usual

Paul- we're figuring things out until-

He was interrupted by the medic coming out.

Yn- how is he?

Medic- he is fine, he was dehydrated which is what was causing him to sweat and have a panic attack

Yn- is it safe to talk to him?

I asked and the medic gave a nod

Medic- yes ma'am, just make sure he's drinking plenty of fluids

I gave a nod then Paul nods for me to go in then I went in slowly seeing Jon laying down on the couch in their dressing room. He looked at me giving me a slight smile, it broke my heart.

Yn- oh Jon.. why didn't you tell me baby?

I asked softly coming next to him sitting down as I held his hand.

Jon- I didn't want you to worry princess

He said softly looking at me

Yn- of course I should worry, I'm your girlfriend. We've been through hell and back babe, please tell me how you're feeling, what happened?

I tried to talk to him and he sighed gripping my hand gently.

Jon- I guess I was just worried about everything, the album, fans, you, I was just overthinking everything and I let it get the best of me.

He said admitting his feedings to me and I looked at him with empathy.

Yn- listen honey, I love you, I'm always here for you through everything, we can work through this. I firmly believe in not just us but you, the guys and your fans. They love you Jon, they can't imagine without you. The guys always want to see you succeed. You don't have to stoop their level at all. You're amazing just the way you are. Believe me

I said with genuine and words of wisdom to him. He gave me a loving smile, he wasn't looking too pale anymore, his soft, light rosy cheeks were slightly coming back.

Jon- thank you baby girl, I needed to hear that

Yn- good and the guys will tell you the same thing

I gave a confident smile and he smiled

Jon- I love you yn

Yn- I love you too Jon

He kisses my lips softly