🖤⛓️ wish you back 🖤⛓️ -a jakehoon ff

chapter 5: the person i had always loved

--Jake POV

A few days had passed, and I had still not forgotten about what the unknown first year had said to me. What did he mean by his "way of telling [me] to love [him] again"?? I was stuck in another situation where nothing made sense - it's as if the world is teasing me and my delicate little loving heart.

Walking into the school gates yet another gloomy morning, I could start to see rain pouring down onto me - and, of course, I forgot to bring an umbrella, classic Sim Jaeyun move, to be honest. I felt.. is "anxious" the right word? I didn't quite know why but my heartbeat quickened without warning, and the next thing I knew, my feet had given to the ground and I was collapsing.

However, I didn't feel the cold, wet ground before I went unconscious, instead, it was the feeling of a warm, gentle hand, catching me from behind and caressing my head comfortingly as its owner whispered "It's okay.. Don't worry, Jakey. You'll be okay.."

At that moment, I was reminded of one person, and one person only, perhaps you could say.. the person I had always loved... But, I couldn't remember who.. All I know is that I loved him, and that's it. Nothing more, nothing less.

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"Alright, Mr. Park. I need you to answer a few questions for me as Mr. Sim is not yet awake. Will that be okay with you??" I heard a woman explain through a slight smile.

"Of course."

"How long have you known Jake for??"

"I'd known him for about 11 years I think?? But..he doesn't recognise me, so, can you not mention it to him please??"

Hey- wait. That sounds like that first year! Park, huh?? And he's known me for that long??? How could it possibly be??

"Alright sir. Does he have regular panic attacks, or is this something new?"

"Well, he's always had them. He has very high stress levels all the time. However, it rapidly increases as a reaction to rain. It's because his parents passed away in a seastorm on their way back to Korea from Australia to see his grandmother. He was on the ship, but luckily, he survived. So..you could call it PTSD if you will, but on the other hand, yes, he has anxiety alongside that too."

How the fuck does this random kid know so much about me?? I only remember telling my high school friend group about that.

"Thank you so much, Mr. Park. You may leave now." The nurse cheered.

"Ms. Cha! What's his name?!" I interrogated her obnoxiously after he had left.

"Oh. Mr. Park?? I don't really know his first name, sorry, Jake. But I think it's something along the lines of.. uh- I'm not so sure, actually." She grinned empathetically at me.

I don't know if it was because of the panic attack or because of the guy, but, at that moment, my heart sure was pounding. Like.. p o u n d i n g.

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By the time I was okay to go out of the nurse's room, it was lunchtime, and boy was I hungry.

I was passing by a bunch of students and heard their volumes suddenly lower as I stepped closer.

"Hey, that's the guy! The pansexual one who dated Park Sunghoon. Ugh..to think that Sunghoon is gay, and has terrible taste, ew." One of the girls murmured and acted out a gag before all of them burst into uncontrollable laughter.

Little did they know, I heard everything. And I could feel the adrenaline rushing all around my body as my heart pumped at a quicker rate. This time, though, I was able to console it, I was used to people talking shit behind my back by now, it barely affected me like it used to. But..how did they know about my sexuality?? And most importantly, who's Park Sunghoon???