My Destiny

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We sat in the gallery. I sat beside sooah and was fixing my shirt.

"Why is this place so dusty" i dusted the dust off from my clothes.

"I have come to know that there were two idol trainees from here. May i request them to come here and sing a song for us please." The MC said.

I froze knowing it was Chorong who leaked the information bout me and seojun. I was seojun slowly turning his head towards me but i looked away. Acting as if i know nothing until sooah pushed me up and i was about to fall but thankfully suho who was behind me caught the collar of my shirt. I nodded him Thankyou and stood aimlessly. I went down towards the stage but seojun beat me to it. He went and started singing.

The song that Seyeon wrote for us....

After he had finished singing i slowly went up and sat on the seat that was given.

This was the song seyeon and i wrote together. Breaking down in the middle yet singing with a cracked voice. I missed him a lot.

I saw suho crying and running in the woods with jugyeong following.

Seojun looked at my crying state yet went behind jugyeong......

I simply finished my song and went back to the tent. Crying alone.

I felt bad...really bad that none of them. Neither suho nor seojun came to me.

Couldn't sleep the whole night and toady we are leaving back for our own houses.

I got on the bus and saw there was only one seat left near the window right at the back i realised that seonun who is right behind me is also staring at that seat.

We both rushed for the seat and it ended up belonging to me. I plopped down and put on my headphones.

I leaned my head to the window closing my eyes lefying the sunlight hit my face.
I was listening to listening to "Giving-Up" by Anna Sophie when Seojun took my right earplug and put it on his right side making him come closer to me. I just stared at him with amusement.

I saw his expression change when he heard the song. This song was actually written by me which i gave to my bestfriend who I became really close with when i was in Australia. 

Seojun didn't know bout it. But i guess knows what the song means.

Will we ever be freinds
Don't wanna lose what we had

Seojun looked at me as i avoided his gaze

Am giving up, I
Because you're living up

I closed my eyes controlling my tears.... i felt his hand going around my shoulders and pulling me close to him. Making me place my head on his shoulder as he patted my head placing his head on top of mine.

Made me turn my head to his neck and whispered, "Let it out, everybody is asleep"  and i started crying cluthing his shirt tightly. Moving my head further into his neck, while he just patted my head. Thankgod everybody was asleep and it was only Seojun Chorong Minhyung and I in the last seat.

Little did i know seojun's heart ached when i broke down.