Fences | ✓

iv - I found you... finally

Felix decided to just take a stroll before going home. He lives in the heart of the city where every necessary establishment is just minutes away. His house was conveniently an hour walk away from the stadium where Strays' concert was being held.

He just walked on the busy streets of Seoul, letting the cold night breeze embrace his already trembling body.

He let his feet lead him until he eventually ended up in a significantly familiar place. A place that held all his memories with a certain someone until they needed to move places for college.

He trailed his fingers on the chains that held out the seat of the swing before sitting down.

His feet led him to an old park near his old highschool.

Paints are already peeling off from the steel and there are also rusts and loud squeaking with every little movement he made, but it just made it all the more nostalgic in Felix's sentimental self.

He threw his head back and looked at the stars above.

A bittersweet smile made it's way to his face as he remembered a certain boy who says embarrassingly cute stuff without really thinking much about it, and it so happened that the same boy once compared his insecurities with the stars as they seat one night on the very same swing he was occupying at the moment.

"Why don't you like your freckles, Lixie?" Hyunjin asked out of nowhere as they sat on the swing that one evening where they watched the sun slowly descend into nothingness.

"Because they're ugly and they make me look weird." Fourteen-year old Felix replied.

"Look at the stars, Felix. Do you think they're ugly? Do you think they make the sky look weird?"

Felix tilted his head up towards the sky. The stars above him seemed to be twinkling happily, and the sky also seemed like it was happy to have them on his darkness, decorating it before it turns into a complete void.

Felix shook his head, "no, I think the stars are really beautiful."

"That's what I think, too. That's why I can never understand why you hate your freckles so much when they look just as beautiful as the stars." Hyunjin answered truthfully, making Felix's heart beat erratically inside his chest.

He learned to love his freckles from then on, well, how can he not when he has someone who constantly reminds him that they're beautiful and that it just makes Felix's pretty face look even prettier.

Hyunjin loves his freckles so much to the point where he made him promise to never hide them. And from then on, it had been illegal for Felix to cover the little speckles of dust on his face, since it makes Hyunjin sulky, and albeit adorable, he doesn't really like seeing the other upset so he just abides to the older's silly rules.

"Eh? Where's my Felix?" Hyunjin asked with a deep frown on his face as he looked at Felix.

They're out on a movie date, and since Felix didn't get enough sleep causing dark circles under his eyes, he decided to use concealer to hide his eyebags. But it kinda looked obvious without foundation, making it look weird so he used his sister's, as he didn't really use make up back then hence he never bothered to buy his own.

Hyunjin's smile immediately faltered as soon as he saw Felix.

"Hyunnie, don't be silly. I needed to cover the bags under my eyes since I couldn't sleep well last night."

"Okay." Hyunjin nodded.

He nodded and said okay but he didn't really speak to Felix for the entirety of their date. The scowl on his face was also there the entire time and never really left no matter what Felix tried to do.

The only time that he made Hyunjin smile that day was when he decided to just wash his face, and all the make-up off. Dark circles be damned.

"You're the prettiest in your most natural state, sweets. Sleep deprived or not."

He laughed remembering how much he struggled looking for translucent make up just to appease Hyunjin.

Felix sighed.

How long has he been trying to forget about Hyunjin? How long has he been trying to convince himself to let go of him, that he doesn't really need to support him anymore like he had promised?

It has been too long. Four years has been too long. And yet he still find himself buying every album that Hyunjin's band releases. He still find himself buying magazines that feature the taller male and emptying his pockets for VIP concert tickets like he said he would. And most of all, he still ends up thinking about Hyunjin every chance he gets to let his mind wander.

Like now.

He groaned.

He even tried going to several dates, thinking it was time for him to move on and that maybe if he had someone to pour his attention to, he'll forget about Hyunjin eventually, but that was anything but close because he always end up finding the other male in every man he tries to date. Whether it be with the same hobbies, small habits , or the same shape of eyes.

So he gave up, accepting that he'd never really move on from someone he had loved for the most part of his life.

And he knew he'd never be loved the same way Hyunjin had loved him, and it's fine with him. Hyunjin has given him a lot of happy memories and a lot of love that can last him a lifetime.

He's fine. He'll be just fine.

Too busy with his own thoughts, Felix didn't even notice someone walking their way to him until that someone took a sit beside him, occupying the empty seat of the swing.

"I finally found you, Felix."

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