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Abuse Awareness

Have none of you ever been abused or gaslight? You think it's so easy to leave an abusive or move on after? It's really not. You obviously have never been in one. They literally gaslight you till you're convinced you're the problem, not them so you stay. They slowly cut you off from your friends and family and anyone who can help you. They manipulate you till you no longer recognize yourself or know who you are. You lose all sense of your own identity. They control your every move. Who you talk to. What you buy. What you eat. Etc. You're no longer your own person. And when you've finally had enough, put your foot down....when you finally get out..... They try everything they can to turn you into the bad guy. Narcissists are master manipulators. They never take responsibility for their own actions and it's always someone else's fault. You end up with PTSD and trauma responses to every little thing..... The nightmares are somehow worse than the actual event that caused the trauma. You're afraid to go to sleep at night.... You're constantly jumpy at every little sound.... You're always checking that your doors and windows are locked.... You are broken. And terrified. And it feels like nothing will ever be okay and that you'll never be safe again. You're constantly in fight or flight mode. You live in a constant state of fear. But no one seems to understand what you're going through and you feel incredibly alone....