life as it is ↬ l.h

Chapter 56

I stopped a red light and pulled out my phone. My weary eyes begged to close, but I strained them open. I had 10 texts and 6 calls. I had been driving for almost two days and I knew I would soon need a break. I searched a close hotel and began to follow the road map.

After driving for another 30 minutes, I pulled into a big building and parked my car. I grabbed my bag and walked inside, lugging it behind me.
"Hello? How can I help you?" A kind man asked from behind the counter. I pulled out my wallet from my bag.

"I need a single room for 1 day or 2?" I asked. I handed over my money and he gave me a room key. I walked down the brightly-painted hallway and opened my room. I immediately plopped down on the bed and sighed. My phone began to ring. I hesitated and then picked it up.
"Hello?" Luke said.
I didn't respond.
"Indie, I need to hear your beautiful voice please." he begged.
I didn't respond.
Luke began to cry "indie, I didn't use you with that's what you think, I might have had some drinks at the beach...."
"YOU WHAT!" I screamed.
The awkward silence was so thick you could probably touch it.
"I love you." He said.
I hung up.

I laid back down and fell asleep instantly.
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I abruptly woke up. Sunlight shined on my face. My heart raced. I had another nightmare. Except no one was here to hold me, kiss my neck and comfort me.

~•~•~the nightmare~•~•~•
I sat in a dark room. I've had this nightmare multiple times except this time it was different. A masked stranger approached me. He pulled off his mask to reveal Louis, who even though I was away from still haunted me. He pulled a gun and pointed it to my head. I had always cowered back, but this time I sat straight and looked in his eyes. Luke stood in the back, his expression blank almost angry. He clicked the bullet into the gun. I still don't move, neither did Luke. This is when the dream changed. Just as Louis was about to pull the trigger as in every dream, Luke moved and took the gun out of his hand. He grabbed my hand and kissed me. Then Luke vanished and left me alone with Louis. My worst fear.
~•~•~•NIGHTMARE ENDS~•~•~•
I collected myself and stood up. I glanced at the pale pink envelope in my bag. I sighed and pulled it out of my bag. "The nightmares won't stop till I open it will they?" I mentally asked myself.

I tilted the envelope a carcassed the fold. I stood up and grabbed my bag, walked out of my room, down the hall, and out the door to my car. I drove to one of the parks that I used to go to as a vacation. I pulled in and walked out and laid in the field I used to dance in as a child.

I ripped open the delicate paper and unfolded the paper.
Dear beautiful indie,
Indie. After we first broke up, I went insane. You were my everything and I couldn't grasp that. I am a truly selfish person and I can't forgive myself for what I've done to you and put you through. After we had our second "run through" , I realized that you moved on, and no longer loved me. The way you looked at Luke while we were on tour made me realize how much you loved him. I'm moving on and I hope that someday, the emotional and physical scars I gave you will heal.
Maybe we can grab a coffee? As friends or strangers...
Yours truly,
Louis Tomlinson.

I held the letter to my chest, and in one swift motion let it float into the wind. I looked down at my arms and legs and saw all the bruises and scars I had and began to cry. And in that moment, I let my painful memories go. After how many sleepless nights I had had, after countless times begging my mind to forget all the bad, I finally could. I thought I would be ok. I was finally able to forgive everyone, Louis and now that I think about it Luke.

I grabbed my phone, as it kept ringing next to me.
Mike o wave
Hey please come to your apartment? I want to talk, no Luke.

I dried my tears in my sweater and nodded. I texted him back yes and walked to my car. I took the drive back to my apartment. I couldn't stop thinking. My mind scattered everywhere, and in that moment I was happiest. I longed to see Luke and hug him and kiss him and I missed his cuddles and his laughs and his smiles. I drove faster.

After countless hours of driving , I pulled into the parking garage of my apartment and walked in. I tiptoed up the stairs and quietly opened the door to my apartment. Michael was standing there. He ran and gave me a huge hug. I nudged my head into his chest and attempted to dry my tears.

He pulled me away and put his hands on my shoulder.
"Go upstairs and put your bag down." he said. I nodded and began to walk up the stairs, Mikey trailing me. I opened the door to Luke, standing tall. Mikey blocked the door.
"Indie rose O'Neil, I love everything about you, your smile, your laugh, your so perfect and I'm such a dick for all I've put you through, please forgive me."
He wiped a tear off his cheek and got down on one knee.

"Indie rose O'Neil? Will you be mine forever? He choked, wiping a tear from his eye. He held out a small, blue box and opened it to reveal a beautiful ring.

I wiped the tears off my cheek.
"Yes Lucas" and ran into his arms.