Just Breathe

Chapter 10

The water covered my feet as the wind blew strongly making my hair fly up. I crossed my arms tightly as I stared out at the ocean. "What's up princess?" A voice came from behind me. "Nothing dad. Just, thinking." I sighed. He put a hand on my shoulder. "You can always come back. But I doubt you'll be in L.A. again. It's quite far away. And I remember when you were little you always said-" "I'll never leave you. Your my only love." I finished. He grinned down at me. "Who knew a 13 year old could be so smart." "I'm 14 now dad." "Oh right. Happy birthday princess." He said handing me a small blue box. I looked at it carefully before slowly opening it. Inside a small silver necklace sat with a red apple hanging on it. I covered my mouth as I looked at it. "Dad, this is..." "I want the best for you Riley." "But really. This must of costed so much. Did you listen to me and use my vault?" I don't know what happened but somehow I was rich but my dad wasn't. I never understood it but he refused to tell me. "No. But, you are my special little girl so you deserve a special present. Especially since we are halfway across the world right now when you should be at school. And so should I..." "I get it, I get it." I said elbowing him with a grin. It was weird having your dad as a DADA teacher but it had perks. Such as dumbledore allowing us to take a vacation for my birthday in December.
The view around me spun in circles as I was dropped into another place. God no. Not this memory.
I stood by the wall next to Remus. "Y-your not my dad?" I asked. He nodded. "No I'm sorry Riley but I am your uncle. Your dad lives in L.A." He said. I hugged him tight. He may not be my dad but he still acts like one. I looked over and saw Harry. He was posed by voldemort or something. It was quite scary. "Harry, please, I know your in there somewhere just please." I said as a tear rolled down my cheek. He looked at me then in a raspy voice said. "You are worthless. No one wants you. Your useless and a waste of time." I knew it wasn't him but my heart fell apart. It felt like it was for some reason. I started to cry but no sobs came out. Finally Harry stopped and gained control. He looked at me but I started running to the fireplaces. He followed me but I ran faster until I got to one. "Riley! Don't!" I looked at him. "Riley, what happened please don't cry." He said. "Harry you scared me." I whispered. He took a step towards me but I took one back into the wall. He looked at me with pleading eyes. I closed mine letting the last tear fall. I then went into the fireplace and was engorged by the flames. I landed in our living room. I fell to the floor crying. The words rang in my ears. 'Your worthless. No one wants you. Your useless and a waste of time' I cried harder until Remus apparated in. He said it. It may not of been him but it sure felt like it. "Riley..." "Don't. Don't even try. He said it." I mumbled "but he didn't mean it Riley! It was Voldemort! He took over Harry's body!" "I don't care! Remus it didn't feel like someone else! It felt like him!" I shouted as I started to shake. "Princess calm down. Your okay now. Deep breaths." He tried calming me down. He rocked me in his arms as I took deep breaths.
I couldn't wake up. I tried my best but couldn't wake up. I didn't want to live through this again. I couldn't live through this again. Again my thoughts swirled around in my head before creating another scene
"I'm Hermione. Hermione Granger." The bushy haired girl said extending her hand. I smiled and gladly shook it. "Riley Lupin." I said. "Alright Riley, time to get on the train. I'll see you at Christmas." Dad said hugging me. I hugged him back tightly. "I'll miss you dad." "I'll miss you more sweetheart." "Not possible." I said with A grin. "Nothing's impossible." He said expecting me to finish. "The word itself says 'I'm possible'" I said. Every time someone said that we would do the exact same thing. I giggled before saying my final goodbyes. "Want to sit together?" I asked Hermione as we stepped onto the train. She smiled and nodded eagerly. We found a compartment with a boy named Neville in it. "What's his name?" I asked as we searched for his pet toad. "Trevor." He replied looking under the seat. "We can go check other compartments." I said as I took her Jones hand and dragged her out. We had looked in so many compartments I was about to give up. I looked at Hermione as she pushed her hair from her face for the seventh time. I took a pin from my hair and clipped hers up. I smiled as she thanked me. I had straightened my hair this morning and braided a small piece clipping it back. I still had another pin in it keeping it still. We entered another compartment and she didn't even knock before sticking her head in. "Have you seen a toad?" She said as the two boys looked dumbstruck. I squeezed in next to her. "A boy named Neville has lost one." I said biting my lip. They shook their heads and I was about to leave when I looked at the red head. "Your doing magic?" I asked sitting next to him. "Let's see then." Hermione finished sitting on the other side of him. "Are you two twins?" "Nope. Just," "friends." I finished as we laughed. Ron shook his head and pointed his wand at a rat. "Sunshine daisies butter mellow, turn this stupid fat rat yellow!" The spell did nothing but blow the candy box off its head. "Is that a real spell? It's not very good." I said confused. Hermione said something and I saw her fix the black haired bus glasses. "I'm her,ione. Hermione Granger." "And I'm Riley Lupin." I said smiling. "Harry Potter." My eyes widened. "The Harry Potter!" I said astonished. He nodded before lifting up his bangs and showing me the scar. I smiled. "And you are?" Hermione said to the red head. "Ron Weasley.' He said his face stuffed. I scrunched up my nose. "Pleasure." I said. "You two best get in your robes. I expect we should arrive soon." I said standing up and going to the door. We were almost out when Hermione turned around. "You've got dirt in your nose. Right there?" She said to Ron. I giggled before we ran off to our compartment.
The scene turned black. I couldn't hear anything or see anything but I could feel everything. Hurtles, depression, anger, excitement, happiness, even death. It was cold and I couldn't move. It was like I was glued to the floor and bound in chains. I tried screaming but nothing came out. The room turned white as two figures stood in front of me. I recognized them as harry and Ginny. They started to snog and I was forced to watch. My eyes burned as I tried to blink and finally screamed. I screamed loudly and bawled. I was suddenly shaken vigorously and my eyes snapped open. My cheeks were flushed and wet and my throat was sore. I was screaming. I was crying. It was just a dream. What surprised me the most? Remus Lupin stood over me. "Riley what's wrong". He rushed out as soon as my breathe became normal. Witney stood by the door biting her nail. "W-what happened." I said trying to sit up. "Witney said you were screaming so apparated to me and brought me here. She couldn't wake you up. I swallowed deeply. "I'm scared." I whispered. He nodded. "I would be too sweetheart. I would be too." He said pulling me into a hug. I stayed there for a while. "I'm not going back." I whispered to Witney. She gave me a small smile and nodded before leaving the room. "I want to come home. For the next three months. Before the next season starts." I said into Remus's shoulder. "Alright. Let's get you packed." He replied rubbing my shoulder. I packed all my clothes and body washes and every hi I needed. I walked downstairs and said a quick goodbye to Witney. "Promise you'll call. And keep in touch." She said, her voice breaking. "Promise." I said about to cry myself. "I'll see you soon Witney." I said. We both took off our necklaces we had gotten when we first moved in. We had one with a key and one with our names engraved in it. We laughed as we handed each other the necklaces so I know wore one with the name "Witney." "forever." I whispered. "Forever." She replied. I hugged her one last time before we disapparated. We landed in front of the burrow, and Mrs. Weasley rushed over. "Oh my dear Riley. I'm so sorry. Please please forgive me dear." She pleaded. I quickly embraced her and buried my head in her shoulder. I began to cry as she soothed me. "I'm here darling." She whispered. "Now come inside. Let's get you settled." "Molly," Remus said as if it were a warning. "Go Remus." The moon. It was becoming dark and tonight was a full moon. He did look weaker. Molly rushed me inside as I tried to hide my face in my hair. She brought me upstairs and helped me get cleaned up. After, she made me some dinner and sat me in a chair to cut my hair. "Molly you don't have to." I said as she took out some scissors. "Oh dear, I will only cut off an inch." She said. I laughed and sat back as she carefully snipped my hair. Once she was done I went to bed but couldn't sleep. I was too scared I would have another dream. "Ugh!" I yelled in frustration before standing up. I fixed my top and put on a sweater and went downstairs in my shorts. It was dark and Molly and Arthur were sleeping so I went quietly. I w pent into the kitchen and made myself a glass of water. "What brings you here?" A voice said making me jump. "George bloody hell!" I whispered putting down my cup. He laughed before becoming serious. "Seriously though why are you here? I heard you and mum made up? What's going on." I shrugged my shoulders. "Didn't feel like going back on tour. Decided to come here until I have to go back." I replied crossing my arms. "Your lying." He said with a smirk. "Fine! I had a really bad dream and ended up having a major panic attack and Remus had to come and help me and I was scared okay!" I said frustrated. He looked softly at me. "Riley..." It was silent for a while. "Why are you here. Shouldn't you be at the apartment above the shop." I asked him. "Came to visit mum." He said. I nodded. "I should, um," "we both know you aren't going to be able to sleep." He said. "Oh whatever." I mumbled before going back to my room. I laid in my bed for a while until I fell asleep from being so tired. I woke up the next day and looked at the clock. 6:30am. I groaned before falling back onto the bed. I couldn't get back to sleep so I just stood up and went to the bathroom. I turned on the shower and first washed my hair with my shampoo that smelt like cake batter. I conditioned with the matching set and then washed my body. Once I was done I went back to my room and took out a soft and light orange coloured loose crop top. I then put on my white denim shorts and cream coloured toms. I took my white clutch and did some light makeup. I curled my hair and put a gold case on my phone. Once I was done I walked downstairs and made myself some toast. I ate it and wrote a quick note to Molly saying I was going out and would be back for dinner. Since I wasn't exactly going to Hogwarts anymore, they let me apparated but it was the only thing I was allowed to do. No other magic. I shut my eyes and soon ended up in the shop. I smiled and pushed past all the people. I found George and jumped on his back. "Georgie!" I shouted in his ear since it was so loud. "Why is there an annoying brat on my back." He said grinning. I laughed. "Missed you too." I said hopping off. "I saw you last night." He said matter-of-factly. "Oh shut up. Where's Fred?" I asked. "Cash." He replied as he sorted through the shelves. I nodded and followed him. "Okay I'm bored. I'm gonna go okay?" I said. "See Ya later Rille's." He said. I smiled and left. I wiped the tears that had started to fall but it didn't help. I never told Mark I was leaving. I just...left. I didn't even cross the street, I just sat on the curb. It started to rain but I didn't move. I kept crying until about an hour later when someone came. "Riley?" They said. I looked over and saw Fred. "Riley your going to get sick, come inside." He said from the door. I didn't move, I just sat there staring straight ahead. "Bloody hell Riley." Fred muttered. He ran out and picked me up. "Fred don't help." "Too late." He said. He put me back on the ground and took my hand before pulling me inside. I hid my face so no one could see me. I was soaking wet and my hair was drenched while my clothes looked like I just jumped in the ocean. "Come on." He said quickly pulling me upstairs into the apartments. He unlocked the door and rushed me in. "What were you thinking!" He shouted as he went to grab a towel. I stayed silent and just stood looking down at my feet. "You don't just come and then go and sulk and stay in the rain getting soaked when you-know-who is back!" He said coming back. I shut my eyes trying to hold back the tears. "I'm sorry." He said his voice becoming softer. He grabbed my hands and held them trying to make them warm. "You feeling okay?" He asked me. "A bit." I said my voice raspy from sitting in the rain and crying. "I'll make you some tea." He ran to the kitchen and put on a pot. "Why are you helping me?" I asked my voice sounding weird. He looked at me confused. "Why wouldn't i?" "I just thought since the incident that you hated me no matter what." I said quietly. "Riley, I could never hate you. Ya, it was harsh what happened, but I love you and that means I want you to be happy." He said. "Really?" "Really." He finished with a smile. He made the tea and handed me a mug. He sat with me for a couple minutes. "I have to go back to the shop. You okay here?" He said walking to the door. "I should probably be getting back to the burrow. Molly will be questioning and I'm tired." I said trying to brush my wet hair with my fingers. "Okay. Be safe Riley." He said before walking off. I put my mug away and disapparated to the burrow. It wasn't raining here but I still rushed inside. When I entered Molly was in the kitchen. "Oh my dear lord! What happened!" She said rushing to get me dry. "Um, I went to the shop, and when I left it was raining. Fred took me back inside for a bit." I said my voice sounding even worse. "Come dear lets get you out of those clothes." She said taking me upstairs. I put a towel in my hair and changed into grey sweats and a navy blue long sleeve shirt. I brushed out my hair and sat at the kitchen table, sipping some hot water with lemon and honey. "When does Remus get back?" I asked Molly. "Soon dear. Soon." She said with a smile. Then she placed a plate with food in front of me. "Thank you." I said picking up my fork. I ate slowly and was half done when my owl flew in the door. I stood up and fed spiral a treat before taking the letter and she flew off. I opened the letter. It was just a small piece of paper.
Poor Riley, looks like she gets three guys. But do any care for her? What's this game. -A
I read the letter over and over. Who was "A"? I was so confused and scared. "Who is it dear?" Molly asked wiping off the table. "Oh, uh, no one...just Mark." I said staring at the note. "That's nice, what did he say?" "Oh, just checking in and making sure I was safe. I should go write him back." I said standing up. "Take your dinner dear, you need the energy." Molly said. I smiled and carefully took the plate. I walked up to my room quickly and put the plate on the desk. I took a piece of parchment and a quill and dipped it in the ink. I started to write a letter to Mark explaining where I went. I asked him if he knew anything about the note and I put it safely in the note. I put it in an envelope and gave it to Spiral who sat on my windowsill. "Take it to Mark." I whispered ties hit to her foot. She flew away and I sighed. What have I gotten myself into! I sat staring out the window for a while. They did a good job on the burrow, but it didn't feel the same. Out of no where a loud thunder cracked and it started pouring rain. I rushed to close the window. "Riley do you mind helping me?" Molly called from the kitchen. I ran down the stairs and helped her close all of the open windows around the house. "Well, that took a lot of energy!" I said sitting down. "Well, when you can't apparated, it's crazy." "Oh I'm aloud to apparated. Dumbledore's permission." I said she gave me a look. "Would of made that a lot easier wouldn't it." She nodded and we sat on the couches laughing. "You know, your here for three months dear, you should go back to Hogwarts." She said softly as we sat eating chocolate chips. "Ya, I guess so but I'm just worried." "About what?" "Everyone wondering the reason I left." I said eating a chip. "It's not something I want they entire school to know." I said. "I understand deary. You should still go back though. Everyone misses you." I smiled and said a quick goodnight before running upstairs. I wrote a quick letter to Dumbledore and Molly let me use her owl. After I sent it I placed all of my stuff and went to sleep. When I woke up, I already had a reply from Dumbledore. I smiled and gave it to Molly. I was going at lunch. Dumbledore would bring me. I sent another letter to Mark explaining it all and double checked I had everything. "Have fun dear. And don't let anyone bother you." Molly said giving me one last hug as professor patiently waited. "All ready?" He asked holding out his arm. I took a deep breath and put my hand on it. "Thanks again Molly." I said as I was sucked away and landed by the black lake. "I will see you at the lunch hour?" He asked me. "When is that?" I asked as we walked to the doors. "About 30 seconds." He said before walking away. Surely enough, all the students soon rushed out of class. I smiled when the first person I spotted was Cho. She was in raven law and a year older than me but we were always friends. "I missed you!" She said as we hugged. "I missed you too!' I said smiling. We laughed and walked to the feast together. "Bye." I waved before sitting down next to Hermione who was in deep conversation with someone. "Crazy isn't it." I said in her ear before taking a drink of pumpkin juice. "Riley!" She screamed hugging the life out of me. "Hey." I giggled. "I missed you so much." She said finally letting go. "I missed you too." I said smiling. "So, why did you come back? Not that I'm upset, I'm so happy!" She said bouncing in her seat. "Well, I'm not going on tour so I decided to fill my free time slot I will go back to school. Only till the next season starts." I said putting some salad on my plate as she took some potatoes. "Well, I'm happy for the while you'll be here" she said. I smiled and started to eat and talk to some people when Hermione nudged me in the ribs. She motioned towards the doors where Ron and Harry were walking in. They were talking but Harry soon stopped when his eyes landed on me. I felt my face turn bright red as I quickly looked away. I looked back over and he was still staring at me as he walked to the table. I rushed to grab all my books and timetable. "Where are you going?" Hermione asked. "Common room." I said picking up the rest of my books. I stood up quickly and rushed out the door. I looked back and he was still looking at me. I walked faster and broke into a run down the hallway. I refused to cry. Though I felt like it, I won't cry. Not anymore. No one can hurt me. Well, for the time being. I reached the common room and realized I didn't have the password. "Its Dilligrot." Hermione said from behind me. I smiled at her kindly before saying "Dilligrot." To the fat lady. She opened up and I rushed inside. I went up to my dormitory and put my books away before sitting on the bed. I sat there for a few minutes just taking deep breaths and trying to calm down. After about five minutes I got up and grabbed my DADA book before walking to class. I sat next to my friend Lavender. I was a bit scared since Snape was the teacher but he was always sort of nice to me. Probably because I was good at potions. He walked into the class and I straightened in my seat. He began to talk and I quickly wrote down everything he was saying. Once the class was over I tried my best to get out before they noticed me. "Riley!" Hermione called. I closed my eyes before putting on a fake smile and turning around. "Hey." I said not making eye contact with Harry. "Come on." She dragged as we walked out of the classroom. We went to our next class silently before going to lunch. I sat down next to Hermione when someone grabbed my arm and pulled me over to just outside the doors. "What the-" "please just listen." Harry pleaded. I was lost in his gorgeous green eyes. I nodded my head as I was snapped out of my thoughts. "Riley, I am sorry, I know you are with Mark but I just had to tell you. It drives me crazy knowing that you don't even think about me." He said with a look of pain on his face. "Harry, I do think about you." I whispered. "I think about you every second of every day Harry. I'm just, scared." "Of what." He said, his voice soft. "Of you not loving me back." I said hesitating. He paused for a second before putting his hand softly on my cheek and pulling me towards him until our lips connected. As he deepened the kiss I started to kiss him back when someone walked by looking at us weird. I pulled back and bit my lip while staring at the floor. "I'm sorry Riley-" "no, Harry I don't love him like I love you." I said looking him in the eye. "R-really?" "Ya." I said a pit forming in my stomach. "I love you too Riley." He said. I smiled and hugged him. "I need to make a call." I said. "You don't have to." "Yes, I do. I don't want to break his heart." I said. I started walking away and I was passing Dumbledore office when he appeared. "Just the person I wanted to see." He said. "I would love to chat professor but I need to make a call." I said. "Oh that won't be necessary. He is here to see you." He said. I looked at him confused before realizing it. Mark was here. I nodded and he led me inside. "I will leave this so you can talk privately." He said before walking away. I turned a corner and was attacked by Mark. "Riley I'm sorry I didn't mean to I swear." He rushed out. "Wait what?" I asked. "I-I kissed Witney." He stuttered. "Mark...I kissed Harry." I confessed. "Then we are even! We can just forget it happened and-" "Mark." I looked at him softly and noticed it. I touched his hand and nothing happened. Not like how I felt when I was with Harry. "If we both kissed other people, maybe we should see other people." I said. He nodded. "It doesn't feel the same to you either does it?" He asked. I shook my head. "Can we please still be best friends. Like best best friends." He asked with a grin. "Nothing less." I said as he hugged me. I said goodbye before running to the great hall I was so happy but it felt weird. Almost...wrong. When I reached the door Ron, Hermione, and Harry were all walking out so when I reached Harry I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him tightly. "Promise me you won't leave." I said so no one else could hear. "I promise baby. I promise." "Me and Mark broke up." I whispered. "Okay. You good?" I nodded my head and pulled back. "I love you Riley." "I love you too Harry." I said smiling. He kissed my cheek and I went redder than a tomato. "Finally!" Ron said throwing his hands in the air. Hermione hit him with her books making me smile. I laughed and as we walked to our class I felt Harry take my hand making me feel warm inside that nothing else could take over. We reached Mgonagalls class and I sat next to Harry. We went over some things and I already knew it all so it was quite a relaxing class. After the rest of the day it was the weekend. We were in the common room talking when I took out my phone to see the time. "Bloody hell what's that?" Ron said bewildered. I smiled and looked at Hermione. "It's a phone. I can call people on it and send them lettered within seconds." I said to him as if he were a child. He stuck his tongue out at me and I returned the gesture. Harry laughed as he linked our fingers together. We were sitting on the couch by the fireplace. "It's 1:00am." I whispered as I laid my head on Harry's shoulder. "You tired?" He said rubbing his arm on my shoulder. I nodded my head. "Cmon guys. It's time to go to sleep." Harry said. Ron and Hermione stood up. We all said goodnight and they went upstairs to let us have some private time. "I missed you." I said to him as our fingers tangled together. "I missed you too." I smiled. "Can I stay in your room tonight?" I asked. "Course love." He said. He stood up and pulled me up off the couch. "Go get changed first." He said before going into his dorm. I changed quickly into white fluffy pants and my white t-shirt that was white and in purple letters "I love you all the way to Paris" I put my hair up into a messy bun and then grabbed my favourite blanket before going to the boys dorms. When I walked in I had my hand covering my eyes so that I didn't see anything that I didn't want to see. "You don't have to do that." Harry's voice said I could hear the grin on his face. "Is everyone decent." I said. "Holy crap who's that!" I heard a voice say. "Riley." I said. "You sound American." A strong Irish accent said. "Because I have spent the last six months in L.A." I replied peeking through my hands to see no one naked. I took my hand away and sat on Harry's lap. "I'm tired." I whined. "Shut up." He said before lying down. I smiled before crawling under the sheets and falling asleep in his arms.
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