Just Breathe

Chapter One

"What if I don't want to!" I yelled at uncle Remus.
"Listen to me Riley, you are going to come to the weasleys whether you like it or not I don't care but you don't get to make your own decisions." He told me looking me straight in the eye.
"What about knowing my dad." I muttered under my breathe. Last year I learned that Remus wasn't my dad. He was my uncle. "But Remus! They received my application!" I said following him downstairs.
"I never said if you were accepted that you couldn't go but you are staying for at least a week. You can't stay home alone you may have another panic attack!" I had been having a lot of attacks lately. Three in the past week. I didn't have cancer but it was close. If I didn't have magic then I would have cancer. I never told my friends. They didn't need to know. I had one last night and Remus had to take me too the hospital. I was horrified. Apparently my lungs filled with water. It didn't happen often. Last time I was six. Ten years. Well almost. Tomorrow is my sixteenth birthday. I'm also supposed to go to the weasleys but I really don't want to. I don't want to run into Harry is most of it.
"Remus he hates me." I said quietly as I stopped walking. Remus turned around and looked at me.
"He doesn't." He whispered. I shook my head. Technically I never broke up with him but, with what happened, I had the right too.

I stood by the wall next to Remus. "Y-your not my dad?" I asked. He nodded.
"No I'm sorry Riley but I am your uncle. Your dad lives in L.A." He said. I hugged him tight. He may not be my dad but he still acts like one. I looked over and saw Harry. He was posed by voldemort or something. It was quite scary.
"Harry, please, I know your in there somewhere just please." I said as a tear rolled down my cheek. He looked at me then in a raspy voice said.
"You are worthless. No one wants you. Your useless and a waste of time." I knew it wasn't him but my heart fell apart. It felt like it was for some reason. I started to cry but no sobs came out. Finally Harry stopped and gained control. He looked at me but I started running to the fireplaces. He followed me but I ran faster until I got to one.
"Riley! Don't!" I looked at him. "Riley, what happened please don't cry." He said.
"Harry you scared me." I whispered. He took a step towards me but I took one back into the wall. He looked at me with pleading eyes. I closed mine letting the last tear fall. I then went into the fireplace and was engorged by the flames. I landed in our living room. I fell to the floor crying. The words rang in my ears. 'Your worthless. No one wants you. Your useless and a waste of time' I cried harder until Remus apparated in. He said it. It may not of truly been him but it sure felt like it.

I was sitting on the couch staring out the window when Remus dropped my bag in front of me snapping me out of my thoughts.
"One week" he said holding up a finger. I groaned and stood up. I grabbed an apple before I took his arm and we apparated outside the burrow. I took a bite of my apple as Remus handed me my duffle bag. It was an aqua blue with s hint of green. I took it everywhere. "I promise you will be fine." Remus said as we approached the door. He knocked on the door and I heard a pot being dropped. A worried mrs weasley opened the door but her faced softened as she saw it was us.
"Come in come in. Your letting the warmth out. It's freezing outside." She said rushing us inside. "Riley! Darling how are you!" She said hugging me.
"Could be better." I mutter. She pulled back and looked at me in the eye.
"I promise you will be fine." I nod.
"Um, uncle Remus will our mail be directed to here?" I ask walking over to the couch by the window.
"Yes it will Riley. Is your application-" I stopped him
"No! Um, no it won't, its just that, um...never mind." I say looking back out the window my face bright red.
"Ron and Hermione are upstairs if you want to see them dear." Mrs weasley said.
"I'm fine" I said breathing out. I saw my owl coming towards the window and I smiled as she flew in. I petted her feathers softly and then untied the letter from her leg. I gave her some food before she flew away. I looked over at Remus and Molly and they were staring at me. My face went red. "It doesn't matter" I whispered as I walked away outside. I sat in a small patch of grass and opened the letter. My heart was racing but stopped. It wasn't from the applicator. It was from someone who I had no clue who it was. I looked at it weirdly. I had never seen the writing before. It had my name on it. I unfold it. It was quite short. It read

Riley,
Remus should've told you by now. I hope you aren't mad. Your mother had died giving birth to you. I didn't think I could take care of you myself so I sent you to Remus. I only hope you can forgive me. I love you Riley. Take care of yourself.
-Charles Lupin (A.K.A dad)

My eyes widened. I stood up and started walking inside. "Remus! Are you still here!" I called.
"Yes Riley what is it." He said. I looked up at him. "It's from my dad." I whispered so that no one could hear. I don't want them too know. Molly knew, and Arthur, Bill and Charlie knew before me! I was good friends with Bill. Remus took the letter and read it. He looked up at me.
"You just got this?" I nodded my head. He looked back at the letter. "I'm coming back tomorrow. Just stay one night. Molly, please keep a close eye on her. She had an attack last night." He said. Molly smiled and nodded. That night I was up in Ginny's room talking with Hermione. I smiled then heard Ginny say
"Is Harry up there!" To Molly. I peeked out the door with Hermione and Ron appeared.
"Did you say Harry's here?" He asked.
"Apparently he's in the house somewhere." She said. Me an Hermione came out and leaned over the railing.
"Harry?" Ginny nodded.
"Are you sure he's here?" Molly asked.
"Defiantly." I heard a voice speak up. I looked down the stairs and standing at the bottom was Harry. Ginny ran and hugged him and I got a feeling in the pit of my stomach that wasn't good. I went back into Ginny's room as everyone else went downstairs. I sat on the bed and heard Hermione go into Ron's room with Harry. I heard her say
"I'll go grab Riley." And I went under my covers hiding. "Riley I know your awake." She said. I took my covers off.
"He hates me." I said.
"He doesn't. I promise." She said. I shook my head.
"I have to go early tomorrow uncle Remus is picking me up-"
"Wait what? I thought you were here for a week!" She said. I went red.
"No I-I just um, I'm not going okay?" I said. She looked at me before walking out. "Ugh!" I shouted beforeI flopped on the bed and fell into a dreamless sleep.