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Dizzy

I'm breathing fast .. faster than I've ever breathed before in my life .
I could feel my cold sweat drops on my forehead running down crazily,
I can ..
I can feel those noises , something running
Somewhere crowded .
My blurry sight could see , him .
Holding my hand .. running by me , calling my name .
I couldn't move or even ask what's going on because I don't remember anything, but I know deep down inside that I was happily carrying my baby inside me , the baby who I didn't want at first but I never imagined I'd lose .
I was feeling my body heating like crazy , I felt like my soul was leaving sooner or later and I knew it was the end , my head was so messy that I couldn't focus on anything but everything at the same time , it was tiring
The only thing I was hearing was " we might lose her " .
" WE MIGHT LOSE HER ! DOCTOR ! "
" THERES LOTS OF PRESSURE PUT ON THE OXYGEN TANK "
" oxygen tank on ! , hurry !! "
" she's breathing! She's breathing! Everything is under control but we gotta deliver her ! "
" prepare her for delivery "
" they're twins , it's risky "
" we'll try to save the babies and the mother ! Cmon team ! Come on ! "
I was awake during that crying kinda but I was also kinda dead , I knew what was happening without being able to move , but I knew what was happening..
I heard my first born's cry , my other one .. where's he at ? .. where ... whe...
" cmon strong boy , breathe
Cmon don't give up , welcome to life , please don't give up , your family is waiting for you , cmon ! Please! "
" we lost him "
" .. we lost him "
" how's the other baby "
" in stability "
" how's she "
" asleep .. "