I'm only me when i'm with you

Scotland

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It was only 1 more day, one more sleep I was so enthusiastic I started to believe sleeping wouldn't be an option tonight I tried to bring Joe and Gali to come along but Joe kept saying the same excuse over and over 'They'll need at least one of us there' though he promised he'd call me once in a while when I arrived in Edinburgh.

And that's when I thought about Frank I haven't even told Lamb that I wasn't in a relationship with Frank anymore my Uncle was decently close to him and they would speak of historical events all the time 'would he be expecting him there or conceivably he wouldn't mention him?'

That's the only trouble, it made my soul darken with bitterness but sorrow as well, I still did and still do love Frank but as I promised myself I was to forget him, and that doesn't mean moving on but taking a break was what I needed.

Frank's belongings were still here he didn't come to retrieve anything as if he wanted to start a new life without no memory I could've burned his stuff for all I cared but I knew it was wrong and that would have let my anger control me instead. I packed his things up in a box I used at least 3 boxes to make sure I had gotten rid of everything.

There was one thing I couldn't get rid of—— a pendant made of real gold, Frank gave me as a gift last Christmas he promised this Christmas he'd get me a necklace to attach the pendant to, but that was all a damn lie.

I tighten my jaw, my face faded into doleful I was trying to fight my tears that wanted to over rush my face, it was pointless my eyes began to flood up, and tears rained as I took only the pendant and placed it inside my nightstand drawer I rushed back to the boxes and picked one up at a time placing them in my basement making sure to keep them away from sight.

I tried to make my day busy just so time could move on but it was absurd I spent the most of my day reading a book 'The Battle of Culloden it was a sorrowful book for sure but it reminded me of my father so I enjoyed having it even if I didn't have time to read it or did not want to.
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                                    5:12 am

I woke up early somehow I managed to fall asleep that night with the book on the floor flipped over now not knowing which section I read. I had to get to the airport as soon as I could before I missed my flight as I would have to be there at seven, checking my phone I received a few phone calls from my uncle but I decided to wait till I got to the airport to at least message him back.

I made sure I had everything I needed making sure I have left nothing behind apparently when you get to your location things tend to come to memory which is things you forgot.

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I arrived at the airport just on time making every second count, taking photos, and sending them to Lamb to tell him 'I'll be there soon' it was laughs while on the phone with Joe as I waited for my flight.

"You will not want to come back after
this trip," He taunted.

"Maybe, but I will miss you, you know that," I said with a bit of an itch on my head.
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                                  7:30 am

An hour passed it was time for me to take my flight I was nervous not about flying yet leaving away from my place my home to go someplace where I wouldn't recognize the people, their language all I could think about is my uncle was there for me, waiting, and will show me around himself.