Party Beast ⎮PJM (18+)

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At home you ran a bath and now sat with your legs drawn up crying and he in the tub. You couldn't stop thinking about what Jimin wanted to do to you-

He crushed your trust and threw it in the dirt. Simply that way!

You feel dirty and soiled.. You want to change your skin.. How are you ever going to think of him again without immediately hating and cursing him? You couldn't stop thinking about him..

That wasn't even the worst of it; You couldn't stop loving him.. Even if he trampled on your trust and dignity. Your heart is always defending him.

He was drunk.He was angry.You provoked him, it's your fault.He wasn't thinking.

"Stop it!"

The water made ripples when you hit it and some splashed to the ground.Desperate, you sink and dive under the water.

It rings at the door.

You stay underwater.

It rings again and again and again and again. A rush of bells.

Annoyed you appear again and get out of the tub. Still dazed from the alcohol, you tie a bathrobe around your body and walk to the door with wet feet. The peephole is never at the damn door for no reason.

"Y/N..."

The door immediately fell shut again. But not fast enough, he managed to get a foot between the door and the frame.

"What do you want here, Namjoon?" You hiss and roll your eyes. "I don't have any strength for you right now."

"Can we talk for a moment, please?"

"Ey- no! Fuck off! I do not want to talk to you!"

"Y/N please..."

"The lady said she doesn't want to talk. So pull away.", this voice. She wasn't any better now.

"And who are you now huh? Don't interfere, okay?" Namjoon took his foot out of the door and you were finally able to close it.

"Y/N! Can we talk for a moment, please?" Jimin had the same question as your ex.. Great.. There was only one solution.

"If you two assholes want to talk to me, talk to each other!" you yell and go back to the bathroom.

There your bathrobe falls back to the ground and you lie down under the water again.

At some point the constant ringing stopped and you sighed contentedly.

Finally~

Why do men always have to be such bastards? One cheats on you and the other almost abuses you. Your tears mix with the hot water of the tub and you surface to catch your breath. It was actually quiet at the door. Neither of them had much stamina.

After a good half hour with a short break, you take a shower, go to the kitchen and make yourself something to eat. Suddenly something banged at the door. It sounded like someone had slammed against the door. You immediately rush over and look through the peephole, but there was nobody there. Open it slightly and you'll see someone leaning on the door. The brunette hair gives Jimin away.

"What are you still doing here?" You ask coldly and he flinches. Did he fall asleep? "Hello?" You repeat, only more annoyed. After getting up, he took two steps back and looked down.

"I need to talk to you, Y/N.. About that earlier.. I'm sorry. I'm sorry." I honestly do. From the heart..", you wanted to close the door, but he held it open.

"Why are you following me?"

"I got your address from Lisa.. Please let's talk..", he looked at you pleadingly and you think about it for a moment.

"I can't trust you after the action at the club. You're an asshole."

"I'm sorry."

"Shut up, Jimin. Tell me something new.", you hiss at him and he looks away. He really seemed to feel guilty.. Maybe he really was sorry. "Two metres. At least." With that you open the door and go into the kitchen. "Close the door." You say and sit down on a stool. Jimin's footsteps came closer and he stopped in the passageway which was maybe ten feet from you."What do you want? Blame it on the alcohol?"

"No. I couldn't think straight, but it wasn't the alcohol. I hate seeing you with other men Y/N. I've lost my temper. I wanted to let you know that I want you and that you-"

"That I what? That I'm yours? No certainly not! I don't belong to anyone, is that clear? I'm not a shitty thing you put a shitty name on and then own it! I'm a fucking human! With my own wishes!" You kept getting louder and closer to Jimin. However, he kept walking away. He held the two meters. For that you hate and love him at the same time.

"Y/N..."

"No! Shut up and let me finish!!! I'm sick of people giving me hopes and then trampling on them! I'm sick of being fucked and then just told love can't be in it! I hate you damn men! Y'all always thinking with your goddamn dick! Do you know how shitty it is?! I've loved you for so long Jimin! And damn it! I still do! Can you imagine how screwed I feel?! You can do anything with me and my fucking heart will defend you to the death! And just because I know you're not like that.."

Now tears were running down your cheeks and your nose was running. Your whole body was shaking and you could hardly breathe. It tore your heart. But shouting it all out was so incredibly good that you lean against a wall and look at the ceiling, completely exhausted and without a voice. A short hysterical laughter came out of your throat but nothing more. 

"I'm done." You breathe softly and sink to the ground crying.