I faked my suicide

Chapter 4

After seeing like half the people there all together united as one family i felt a little lonely. I really need Mandy, i need someone to talk to. I seriously want someone to care for me and to take me out of what i'm in, i want that person to change me into a different person. I can't do this alone since i honestly feel weak from inside but i try to show that i'm strong from the outside. 'Sometimes we try to be something we are not as a cover up for what we truly feel inside'- justin bieber; maybe that describes me. It does.

I go back to the room i slept in, took my toothbrush, a towel and new clothes from the backpack i took when i left the house. I went to the bathroom, and took a shower.

Much better!!! I feel fresh ahh... I organize my stuff then leave the room and go to eat breakfast cause i seriously am starving.

As i'm walking to the cafeteria i smell pancakes, yumm!!! sounds gooooodd...

I enter and yup we're having pancakes for breakfast, i put some in my plate with chocolate syrup and then head to a table and sit alone, although there are many groups of people my age sitting on different tables, each squad separately.

As i'm eating my pancakes i get lost again in my thoughts. My mind wanders to the thought of what is happening in my life. Like should i really stay alive? Sometimes i feel like i want to die or just kill myself so i can relax and finally be free with my soul and forget and leave everyone and everything behind. The only reason that i'm still here is for one person, only one, Ryan.

'Hey' a boyish voice interrupts me from thinking and brings me back to earth while i was at 'Emily Planet'.

'Hii' i say trying to focus well.

That stranger doesn't bother to answer so yeah i continue eating my pancakes.

'I came and sat here cause i saw you alone' he says as he breaks the silence between us.

'Oh thank you though'

'What's your name? Mine is Noah.'

'Emily it is, nice to meet you' i say while we shake hands.

'Wanna go take a walk?' He asks.

'Yupp sure'

We get up and leave the cafeteria. I follow him as he's leading me outside so we sit on a bench under the hot, warm, safe sun.

'So, how long have you been here?' Noah asks curiously.

'Um since last night' I answer his question. 'What about you?'

'Its been a long two months...'

'Ouu how did you come here?'

'Im an orphan and yeah i don't have parents, i got adopted by a very rich family that had loads of money, they had a big business, they had their own factory of wine which they used to distribute for all of the shops worldwide... but since like five years we discovered that the mom, my mom, had cancer so her husband which is the owner of the factory, my dad, spent all his money on her so she could recover from her illness but unfortunately after wasting all the money on her she died about two years ago. Those two years were the worst years and moments and seconds of my life. My dad went crazy because his payments got overload and he couldn't afford them anymore so he shut down his factory. He started going out every night, and he started dating one woman per week. He changed so much from a gentleman to a drug dealer. He also abused me and hit me and once he took the gun and was going to kill me. That night, i called the police secretly without him knowing, so now he is in jail and I'm right here, in the center that saved my life.' He says as he has tears in his eyes that are stuck inside and dont want to come out, it's like he's going to cry any minute but he just keeps everything in.

I feel noah trusts me and thats why he told me everything about him and his family, so i decide to tell him everything.

'Noah, at least now your safe. You know, i've only known you for like a couple of hours but i'm going to tell you my story. I lived in a family where no one talks to each other, they just fight, they hit us, abuses us, and kills us, inside. I have one brother he is 10 and he is literally the reason i'm still alive. My parents never stopped fighting since the day i was born and my brother, Ryan, was grown under my hands. So last night, we came back from school and i have no idea what happened but i just ugh' i stop take a deep breath and continue 'My dad kicked Ryan out of the house. And i really wasn't going to leave him alone outside so i just ran out after him. We tried to apologize but they didn't accept so we ended up in the street at almost midnight. So a police officer sees us and brings us here. This is my story and this is my life.' I did end up with some tears in my eyes because i still didn't move on, i'm still stuck in my past, i'm still stuck in yesterday. Eww the memories eww!

'Don't cry Emily! It's alright. Everything's going to be okay in the end'

'I know, Noah, but its hard. It really is hard.'

'I know it is, Emily, but that's life. You have to go through the worst days of your life to earn the best ones! I promise you, the rest of your life, will be the best of your life. I promise you'

'I never forget promises Noah! So you better keep that promise!!!!' I say and giggle, trying to get out of the person i am.

'Let's go get some ice cream, it really is hot under the sun.'

'Sure!!! I agree'

As we come back to the center i hear Mrs. Amanda calling me.

'What's the matter Mrs. Amanda?'

'Your parents, your parents are coming after you!' She says and she is shaking from fear.

'WHAT?! WHAT THE HELL! WHY?! WHAT ARE THEY GOING TO DO? Please save me Mrs. Amanda! Please don't let them ake me home, PLEASE!' I say as i become extremely afraid and scared.

'I'm trying but their is nothing to hold your dad now, he is furious than ever now my dear.'

'Save Ryan. Just save Ryan. Only him. It's okay, ill go but save Ryan.'

'You're not going anywhere OKAY?!' Noah says 'you're going to stay here, with me, and don't you dare leave alone, we'll leave together.'

'Calm yourself Noah' Mrs. Amanda says as she is trying to contact people on her phone to solve this problem.

'Close all doors and windows in the center. Everyone inside, repeat, everyone inside. Close all gates' Mrs. Amanda demands and she is speaking in the speaker so that everyone in the place could hear her.

I hurry to find Ryan to keep him with me. I find him and his friends in the corner confused so i pull him towards me and tell him everything.

'Stay safe, Ryan. I'll come back' i tell him and print a soft kiss on his cheek and i go away.

A.N:
Hey babess, i am realllllyyyyy sorry for the late update but i didn't have much time lately! So, are you enjoying the story so farrrr??? Vote and comment and lemme know what you guys thinkkk!! I love you all so muchhhh <3