lovely Leslie

chapter twelve

I woke up to Mary cussing and the smoke alarm going off. I ran down stairs and seen her wafting the smoke. "What happened?" I asked. "I was arguing with work while I was cooking and forgot. They piss me off so bad!" She yelled. I laughed and she gave me a dirty look. "You're parents got the message. Their excited. They think you can't handle the real world anymore. You're flight is on two hours so you got an hr to get ready," she added. I frowned at the mention of my parents. They won't be excited for long... I had to tell Leslie. I went up stairs to change and shower. I felt a hand against my shoulder as I stepped out of the shower. I looked up and seen Leslie give me that look. She was hungry and not for food. Now was not the time for fun...

"So, sexy... why are you putting on you're Amish clothes today?" She asked looking at my plain dress I sat out. "Let me get dressed real fast ok? I'll be out in a minute,lol told her. She shut the door and I hurriedly got dressed. I did not miss wearing these clothing.. I walked out and seen Leslie leaning back comfortably on the bed watching TV. I sat down and starred at her. She looked over at me and her face fell. "Why do you look so sad baby?" She asked. I sighed and began.

"Leslie, I'm going back home today. I have to leave in an hour." She jerked up and jumped beside me. "I thought you had another month?" She said eyes wide with fear. "I do, or did. I miss my family, Leslie. I want to see them," I said. "But... You can see your family any time? I thought you decided to stay?" She asked. I could tell she was holding back. "No, I can't see them anytime. If I decide to stay I will no longer have a family. I won't exist to them," I explained. She grew angry, "If? If you decide to stay? Just last night you said you were! You're leaving me?! Martha, I don't see your family just pretending like you never existed! Its family!"

"You don't understand! We love way different than you! Look what Mary family did! Look what you're own Mom did! Family is more than capable of acting like I was never born!" I yelled. "The circumstances are different with my mother! Gays aren't accepted anywhere you go! And that was Marys parents. Maybe yours will be different," she said heated. "Damn it Leslie, Marys Mom is my moms sister! They believe the same way! Listen, I do not want to fight. I'm about to have to go," I said rubbing my temple. Mary knocked and said we had to go.

Leslie cried into my shoulder begging me not to go back. She wants me to stay here Ohio with her. It was the end of my rumspringa and I had to go back home and make my decision.

"Please, Martha don't leave me! Stay here with me!" She cried. Tears streaked her face and she wiped her nose on her sleeve. " Leslie I have to go back. I have to decide if I want to join my community or not," I said. "You know damn well if you go back you will never be happy. You can't be yourself!" I kissed her hard on the lips and ran my fingers threw her hair.

"I love you Leslie," I mumbled and left.