DADDY // HS

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Harry

I still feel like shit. Emma isn't waking up. I was sitting on my bed alone. Wow I didn't realize how much left. Its very quiet except the children's laughter.

I wasn't gonna make them upset so I smiled and played along with them. I also had the twins with me as I played with them. Its been a month now she needs to wake but I've already given up.

She'll die, I just know it. They have her on life support and they said it was my decision if we wanted to put her out. Of course not. I love her to much let her go.

I was I the play room building Lego's. The twins were busy with a small bounce thingy that Emma got.

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I went to the hospital to check on her I saw they took her off life support. She was breathing on her own. I smiled as I kissed her forehead. I sat for a while hoping but nothing.

I felt a tear leak from my eyes but I blinked it away. I stood up leaving.

I drove back home and paid the babysitter. I made dinner as they all watched TV. Thank god I knew how to cook so I made some chicken noodle soup and got the formula ready.

"Kids time to eat and can you get the twins?" I asked they picked up the twins and walked over to the table. Aussie almost tripped with London.

Mini fucking heart attack.

I put the twins in high chairs and the other sat down. I got their bowls ready as we all ate.

We laughed and joked about everything.

I did the dishes as they got back to the TV. I took a shower and I started to miss those small hands wrapping around waist from behind as she kissed my back.

I miss kissing her soft lips every morning and telling her I love her. I miss it when she was on her period she's wanted nothing but a gallon of pudding.

I miss seeing her really get into something like playing with the kids. I miss her coming to my office with me. I miss making love to her. I loved it when she took control of me.

I miss every thing about her. The way her hair falls into perfect place with out even trying, those naturally long eye lashes. Her full lips, glowing hazel eyes, her soft skin. Her little quirks were cute. Like she hates it if the bed sheets aren't changed two weeks at a time.

I wish she was in my arms right now kissing me as I tell her how happy I am with us. Tell I love her with everything I've got. If she showed up right now I'd make love to her like no other.
I'd make sure it was a slow pace as I look into her big eyes and tell her over and over again on how much I am in love with her as she moans my name.

I stepped out and got dressed in some boxers and joggers. I put the kids down as I made sure the twins were asleep before I got in bed with the TV on.

It was about me and Emma.

I shut it off not wanting to be reminded. I took off my joggers and fell asleep with tears in my eyes.

I didn't bother to stop them. I just let it all out. It like j can still hear her echoing for me, like my name is spilling constantly from her moist soft lips.

I soon fell asleep felling like shit yet again.

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