I know I said I would start at the beginning, but to be honest, I don't know where that is. I'm not very big on relationships. I'm more of the hoe around type because I hate the commitment. But there was something about this guy that made me forget. Forget all the pain, forget all the thoughts that were constantly going through my head. It's weird how a single person can make you feel that way; don't you think? His name was Kevin, Kevin Patrick. When I first met him, I never would have thought we'd be where we are today. He saved me. He taught me how to love and be loved. He taught me everything I know now. But between me and you, he was kind of a bitch, to be honest. There was so much about our relationship that went wrong.....he abused me and I abused him; whether it was physical or not, it was still abuse. I'll never forgive myself for that, ever. But we always found our way back to each other because of that trauma bond we shared. The first time we got together, August 4, 2019, he hurt me. He hurt me so badly I never thought I could love again. But I stayed. I don't know why either. Maybe I was too scared of loving someone again. Maybe I had too much hope for the man I was so in love with...too much hope that he would change or love me. He was the first guy I really loved. The first guy I trusted and opened up to. The first guy who saw every little piece of me. I had never felt more loved by another person in my entire life, but it was so bad. We were so bad. The fights, the rages, the controlling, all of it. But we loved each other. We loved each other as much as we knew how to.
But sit back and enjoy, our story isn't over yet...it's only just begun.
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Before We Say Goodbye
Romance!!THIS CONTENT HAS POSSIBLE TW!! May 11, 2019; the day I fell in love with the "perfect," tall, skinny, brown-haired, and brown-eyed boy. We were young. Young hopeless romantics looking for love in a place we knew it could never be found. Maybe deep...
