Magma Reformed

Recharge-Magma

As my consciousness slowly rises I feel pain. My body aches and I groan at the feel. As I blink my eyes I feel groggy but really warm. I sniff the air knowing that feeling this warm means that Igneous is close to me. I feel his scent calm me as some of the pain fades. As my eyes start to drift shut in this moment of peace my eyes suddenly flare open as I remembered what happened. I sit up fast to survey the damage to see if I shifted.

At my sudden jerk Igneous rouses beside in my panic as his hold tightens on me. I rush to grab him as tears leak from my eyes to know that he is okay. My beast bows her head in contrition feeling guilty for the trouble she has caused. As I squeeze him to me an exhale of relief leaves me. We are okay. We are both okay.

I can feel a slight warmth to my throat, and I know that I have recently swallowed fire. As I take a look at myself pulling back from Igneous I freeze when I realize that I am naked. I am really naked.

Suddenly feeling shy I rise from the floor in front of the fireplace where we laid and grab the throw blanket off the couch as I cover myself. I turn away from him to stare at the wall of the kitchen as I blush to what he may have seen.

If he has already seen us then there is no need to be shy.

"Are you okay, Magma. You gave me quite the scare" he says as I hear him rise.

"I'm fine" I say as tears spring to my eyes once more. This whole thing has been a disaster. I clench my teeth at the strain of wanting to sob my heart out. Now that he has seen how monstruous I can be I know that he will want to leave. I just know that I'm going to lose him.

Afterall, my beast has made me lose everyone else why wouldn't she take my mate away from me too.

I am not to blame for those things. We have discussed this before. We are not monsters.

I walk toward my bedroom wanting to be along. As I walk I construct a maze in my mind and throw my beast into it. She fights against the trap knowing that I am going to ignore her.

"Magma...I" he begins

"I just want to be alone right now, Igneous. There is nothing that needs to be said" I grit out as I shut the door. It shuts with a finality that I can feel echoing through my soul as my back slides against it and tears roll down my cheeks. My chest aches at pain of the loss I am beginning to feel for the inevitability of him leaving. I know that he will have no choice because it's not safe for him.

The monster I have battled with since it first appeared cannot be controlled. I have no idea why I ever thought it could. As the first sob leaves my chest I give in to the feeling. After being strong for so long I let myself feel all the pain I hide inside. I might as well get used to the feeling because after losing my mate, there is nothing left in this world but pain.

-Igneous

I jump as the door to her bedroom slams shut. I immediately take a step toward it knowing that if I could just apologize then things will be alright.

Something has me stopping as I lift my hands to knock knowing that a simple apology isn't going to fix this. The way I put both of us in danger was bad enough. I lean my head against the door when I hear her sob.

As the sobbing continues I truly know that I have messed up. I had imagined this day going so much different. We were supposed to talk about what this all means and where we would go next.

Instead something that was meant as a joke has hurt her. I almost caused her to destroy her home and me in the process. I made her lose control and that would have created so many problems.