"Pillow Princess" - a Stray Kids oneshot

taking care of the princess

the previous night

Another night that Hyunjin was alone in his room, staring at himself in the mirror and crying his eyes out.

It had become a routine for him, as the negative thoughts and the insecurities never let him whine down and be comfortable with his looks.

He slightly lifted his shorts, looking at his slim legs. He sighed as he compared in his head his legs with the other member's.

'Why can't I be more masculine..'
'Why can't I have thicker arms and thighs..'
'Why do I look so sulky and swollen all the time..'

Thoughts like these always wondered in his head, making him hate himself, he felt so ugly and unattractive, as if it wasn't his body, like he didn't belong in it.

He layed on the bed, crawling in a ball and crying his eyes out, leaving small sobs in the pillow so the others wouldn't hear him.

After a while, he fell asleep with a heavy head from crying so much and the negative thoughts more intense than ever...

This morning :

Hyunjin woke up , his head slightly hurting from the sobbing and his eyes were puffy. He felt a bit different , in a different , more submissive headspace again. It wasn't very late around 9am when he decided to slowly get up from the bed. He threw a pink oversized hoodie on and with a pouty face he got out of his room searching for the others.

He went downstairs, slowly looking at the top of the stairs if someone was down. He saw that all of them were sitting on the couches , sipping their coffees and eating breakfast as they were talking and laughing.

He slowly rubbed his eyes with a pout and walked over to Minho..sitting on his lap and resting his head on the others shoulder hugging him tightly.

"Mommy.." he softly whispered.

"Hey baby, what's wrong?" Minho said with a pout as he stroke hyunjin's hair.

The younger didn't answer and hid his face more. Minho then lifted his chin and took a good look in his face.

"Princess? What happened?" he asked again and caressed his cheek, leaving a small peck on the other's pouty lips.
Hyunjin huffled and looked at the older.

"Hyunnie is sad.." he said and lowerd his eyes. The rest had now full attention on Hyunjin and watched over with worry in their eyes.

Hyunjin had clearly entered his head space again and minho had taken notice of it.

"Oh no princess.. Wanna tell mommy about it?" minho asked and the younger nodded slowly, still sitting on the other's lap.

Minho picked him up, and wrapped his legs around his waist, holding him close.

"Where are we going mommy?" hyunjin asked, surprised from the sudden move.

"Upstairs. We're going to take a bath, relax and tell me what's wrong, okay baby?" he said and pecked his lips one more time.

Hyunjin hid his head in the other's neck shyly and nodded rapidly, feeling exited to spend time with his favourite person.

They went to the bathroom , Minho put Hyunjin on the sink and gently rubbed his fingers on the others cheek.

"Let me prepare the bath , yes princess?" Minho said , and Hyunjin nodded softly.

He got everything ready , put a lot of bubbles and went again to Hyunjin. He was still fidgeting with his sleeves while looking down , still unhappy.